[clint eastwood]

Hi

I am a 31 male living in England, I had a paedophile as a grandfather who molested my three sisters over a 6 - 7 year period and hated little boys so I wasn't his favourite although I wasn't sexually molested like my sisters were.

When I was between the ages of 21 - 23 my parents went through a divorce from hell, between the ages of 23 - 31 I have been existing, not living and I am tired of that I want to live, I really do but my hate at what happened to me and feelings of hopelessness that the environment can make me feel so powerless make me not want to put any effort into my life.

I have left a lot out, I also have ADHD and developed a substance abuse problem with the medication prescribed to me to make my life better. I have no real family my sisters combined have maybe phoned me 5 times in my life to ask how I am.

They are in extreme denial, are extremely manipulative and selfish, I have tried to help them but my family nearly exploded when I did and I nearly went into meltdown.

Will you help me, I have recurring flashbacks of hate towards my eldest sister and my father for doing nothing, and flashbacks of my depression in Cambridge. I can give you a lot more information if you ask for it but this is an introduction.

What should I do

Signed
An unsung hero

[Fr_Chuck]

Stop trying to build any family relationshps, Stop blaming yourself for something your grandfather did. And to be honest stop blamig the past for your choices and start making new ones.

So what do you want to do to "live" a new job, more education, or what.