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here2assist · Jul 11, 2012, 04:53 PM

Originally Posted by sayanaladka

the sad part isnt the relationship, its the 1 year of friendship we had before the 2 year relationship. i lost not just love but the closest friend i had. but then she lost me too. that makes me more sad.

i meant we used to talk every day for 2+yrs UNTIL we broke up. even when we used to argue.i am doing te same thing, trying to notice what she lacked, and there is so much i am uncovering daily. however still all those tender feelings for her wont go away. it feels like it will never end.

The mind likes to play tricks on us. When you're in the relationship the arguments and problems are so draining and taxing however when you're out of the relationship all you can remember are the tender, loving moments. I know exactly how you feel. You just haven't given yourself enough time. Those feelings do lift and slowly but surely you'll find yourself in a better place. It's sad to lose your best friend in the process too but you can't immediately flip the switch from romance to platonic. It's just not possible. If you want to carry on a friendship at a later time you can try to reach out to her. I'd give it at least 6 months. Keep in mind, you may not get the response you want. She could be cold, indifferent, unpleasant or unresponsive. You have to decide for yourself whether you're prepared for that. I'd love to be friends with my ex down the road because we had such a nice time together however he's sooooo emotional and incapable of letting go of things. I can honestly say the thought of seeing him on the street with his arms around another woman doesn't even make me flinch. I don't know. I guess I'm fortunate because it's so apparent that he's not the right person for me. If you were fighting regularly do you really think she is the girl for you? Um... probably not. Know that if you ever got back together the same issues will surface. TRUST ME! I've been down that road and you end up separating only to have to go through the pain and awful agony of a breakup again.

sayanaladka · Jul 12, 2012, 12:56 PM

Originally Posted by here2assist

If you were fighting regularly do you really think she is the girl for you? Um...probably not. Know that if you ever got back together the same issues will surface. TRUST ME! I've been down that road and you end up separating only to have to go through the pain and awful agony of a breakup again.

We were very good together for most of the time. But you are indeed correct a lot of the issues might still happen, but then they may not, I guess we both changed, I got less needy and she got more insecure. She is a very nice person, she is just hurt, as I am, and I don't blame her for anything. I just want a friendship with her because I am moving away love-wise, but I know she remembers the past and its probably not a good idea right now. She has retained the hurt whereas I have let it go, thinking of her as a 6 yo girl. I guess I could get hurt a lot if she is indifferent or curt to me.

mmresd · Jul 12, 2012, 02:01 PM

Erase her from everything and continue with the NC... relationship still done, live your life elsewhere.

sayanaladka · Jul 12, 2012, 02:33 PM

Originally Posted by mmresd

Erase her from everything and continue with the NC... relationship still done, live your life elsewhere.

I already am starting to, but we have a long history of closeness before things rapidly went toxic.

Homegirl 50 · Jul 12, 2012, 03:45 PM

Originally Posted by sayanaladka

i already am starting to, but we have a long history of closeness before things rapidly went toxic.

Doesn't matter. She has decided to end things, you have to accept that and leave it alone.

sayanaladka · Jul 12, 2012, 03:47 PM

We used to talk of going to paris and spending an evening by the eiffel tower (we never got a chance to do that), today she changed her profile pic on messenger to a picture of the eiffel tower. I saw her online but I didn't talk to her, the memory of what happened the last time still hurts my self-esteem.

Originally Posted by Homegirl 50

Doesn't matter. She has decided to end things, you have to accept that and leave it alone.

I did accept that the relationship was over, and I didn't expect friendship either, but I didn't get why she couldn't be civil to me, especially when we both know I didn't hurt her with any malice in mind, it was simply us drifting apaprt and each feeling the other didn't care, which led to arguments.

Homegirl 50 · Jul 12, 2012, 03:55 PM

Originally Posted by sayanaladka

i did accept that the relationship was over, and i didnt expect friendship either, but i didnt get why she cudnt be civil to me, especially when we both know i didnt hurt her with any malice in mind, it was simply us drifting apaprt and each feeling the other didnt care, which led to arguments.

Who knows, but it is what it is. Don't mess yourself up trying to figure her out. You really need to let go of this.

sayanaladka · Jul 12, 2012, 03:59 PM

Originally Posted by Homegirl 50

Who knows, but it is what it is. Don't mess yourself up trying to figure her out. You really need to let go of this.

You are right, I need to stop analysing, and just do full nc. While I am not begging, pleading or any of that, I am constantly analysing what/why, even about the profile pic change, and that is also detrimental to my peace of mind.

Homegirl 50 · Jul 12, 2012, 04:17 PM

Delete the account then the temptation won't be there.

sayanaladka · Jul 12, 2012, 11:21 PM

Originally Posted by Homegirl 50

Delete the account then the temptation won't be there.

Although I can't delete my account (because I use it for everyone unlike her), I did block her on it, then after 3 weeks unblocked her, and then proceeded to say 'hi' which caused this turmoil. Something in me feels happy when I see her messenger icon light up.

Homegirl 50 · Jul 13, 2012, 08:15 AM

You are your own worst enemy. Block her and stop torturing yourself.

sayanaladka · Jul 13, 2012, 01:04 PM

Originally Posted by Homegirl 50

You are your own worst enemy. Block her and stop torturing yourself.

We said bye so we blocked ourselves right there. I don't want her to think that she is affecting me, so I won't block her, I want her to think I'm happy and moving on, I am keeping happy status messages so she can see them as well. This way she can move on as well, otherwise she will be stuck in time, and I don't want that to happen to either of us.

Homegirl 50 · Jul 13, 2012, 01:17 PM

I think you are lying to yourself.
She left you remember. I don't think she would care or think she is affecting you if you block her. If anything she will think you have moved on, and I don't think you want her to think that. You want her to be reminded of you.
Like I said you are your own worst enemy. You are the one blocking your recovery.

sayanaladka · Jul 13, 2012, 02:59 PM

Originally Posted by Homegirl 50

I think you are lying to yourself.
She left you remember. I don't think she would care or think she is affecting you if you block her. If anything she will think you have moved on, and I don't think you want her to think that. You want her to be reminded of you.
Like I said you are your own worst enemy. You are the one blocking your recovery.

U may b right. One of the reasons we broke up was because she thought I was dating other girls, which was not true. Me blocking her will make her think she was right. Won't that cause her to hate me?

talaniman · Jul 13, 2012, 04:26 PM

Block her dude, its your account and be done with this useless dialog with yourself of what she will think about your actions. Who cares what she thinks except YOU!! She probably thinks you are a PUNK for NOT blocking her from using YOUR account. I do!

You are stuck in your own mind, and that's not good.

Homegirl 50 · Jul 13, 2012, 07:13 PM

Originally Posted by sayanaladka

u may b right. one of the reasons we broke up was because she thought i was dating other girls, which was not true. me blocking her will make her think she was right. wont that cause her to hate me?

She left you. What difference does it make? Get a life!

sayanaladka · Jul 14, 2012, 12:54 AM

Originally Posted by talaniman

She probably thinks you are a PUNK for NOT blocking her from using YOUR account. I do!
You are stuck in your own mind, and thats not good.

Just to be clear, it is HER account, but it has ONLY ME listed as a contact. My account has her and others on it, so I can't delete my account but can block her. Its my LAST connection with her, I deleted my own fb account, deleted her phone number so I do not drunk dial her anytime etc etc. what is punk-ish about letting her see me online? (lost)
I have been on dates with 2/3 girls but no one comes even close to how she smells smiles walks, nothing. How do I get unstuck?

Originally Posted by Homegirl 50

She left you. What difference does it make? Get a life!

Yea you are right. I have a date today. But can't get her off my mind.

Oh, and she is logging in again for entire days last 2 days. Same pattern. I know she uses the account only for me (pls don't ask me how). I haven't said anything to her this time, and never will initiate dialogue. Its like she is mocking me, with the profile pic change and all that staying online business, I don't know. I like it when I c her online so I know she is well. We broke up one time earlier and that time she ended up in hospital.

Homegirl 50 · Jul 14, 2012, 08:26 AM

OK, I'm going to be HARSH!
You are pitiful. If you want to keep torturing yourself, do it, but don't come here asking about when the pain will go away when you don't want to do what it takes to stop it.
Block her from your messenger and stop virtual stalking her like some lovesick puppy, or keep doing it and stay miserable.

sayanaladka · Jul 14, 2012, 05:05 PM

Originally Posted by Homegirl 50

Block her from your messenger and stop virtual stalking her like some lovesick puppy, or keep doing it and stay miserable.

I did block her for 3 weeks, it didn't get easier, but I guess I have nothing to lose either way.

Homegirl 50 · Jul 14, 2012, 07:14 PM

Like I said stalk her like a lovesick puppy and stay miserable.