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    #21

    Dec 15, 2009, 01:57 AM
    I'd say they can and that's tough but that was then and now is now. Me I' delete all messages as part of moving forward.
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    #22

    Dec 15, 2009, 04:32 AM

    I want to add a few updates upon doing some soul searching:

    - I forgot to mention that she bartends Fri-Sat-Sun from 4pm-3am in addition to her full time job. She left me a voice mail after work Monday morning (3AM) saying she will call me when she wakes up. Based on 2 1/2 years of routine she usually calls around 11:30am to say good morning. I hadn't heard from her all day so naturally I became worried and sent her a text simply asking 'Are you all right?' I know NC MEANS NC, but this was just my caring side kicking in. That is all I said, but the weird thing was that she did not respond until 11:30PM that night by calling me. I stuck to my guns, or should I say shield, and did not answer then or when she called again at 12am. I found this odd though because knowing how she is, she ALWAYS has her phone clutched in her hands no matter where she is, so why couldn't she have the decency to just text back 'yes'??

    Which brings me to this:

    - At the beginning of this semester she found a stray puppy one night and she took it to her friend Matt's house because her parents didn't want it in their home (I should also mention that most of her friends are guys she grew up with, which never ever bothered me). Anyway she moved into her apartment about 1 1/2 months later, but in the meantime she spent about 2-3 hours per day (sometimes more), EVERY day, at Matt's house caring for the puppy. I also found it strange when she went to Matt's sometimes because I would call her just to chat and would have to call about 3-4 times consecutively before she returned my call much later in the evening. Keeping in mind she ALWAYS has her phone on or next to her, I would ask why she didn't answer and her response was always something like; 'Huh? Oh I didn't hear my phone.' or 'Oh my phone was on silent' or 'My phone fell into the couch cushions.' Does anyone else find this a little weird? Perhaps I am being naïve?

    Sorry for venting here, but I want to speak my peace without her hearing it and her getting more unhappy with me.

    I also found it weird that she and Matt were great friends when she and I first started dating, then they stopped talking for a while, and then this puppy comes along and they start going to local bars and what not, sometimes just the two of them and sometimes with friends. Which brings me to this:

    -When I was visiting the ex a few weeks ago, I asked if I could tag along to Matt's to see the puppy. She said she had to call him to make sure I could come out and he proceeded to tell her I wasn't allowed in or near his house because he didn't know me. I will admit I got a little defensive but she told me to drop it because she didn't want to fight with me or Matt about it. I got my revenge a few weeks later when I was speaking with the ex on the phone from college. She asked if I cared if Matt helped her move some things from her parents house to the new apartment, and I very jokingly said that I didn't want him in or around my house because I didn't know him. She got extremely defensive about my statement even though I explained I was joking. I still think that this is what she is referring to when she says I don't try to be friends with her friends.

    Anyway, I just needed to get all of that out in the open somehow and would like to hear what everyone thinks about it. Maybe I'm just being naïve and looking into things way too much, but I wanted to share how I have been feeling without starting a fight with her. I have given her my heart since day one of the relationship and felt complete devotion from her, but after doing some thinking these were some issues I had prior to the break up. Blah.
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    Dec 15, 2009, 05:07 AM
    Well blah-how would you interprete your latest post had somebody else written that? I smell a rat,sorry guy-but I think its time to really do the NC- forever if need be.
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    #24

    Dec 15, 2009, 07:20 AM

    I can see your fustration, seeing that she did a 180 degree turn in 3 months. But it happens. It really sucks, but feelings change.

    It's clear that her past actions show that she cares about you. But her present actions show otherwise. You can't keep living in the past and hope that her past actions will resurface.

    You need to focus on her present actions. Her present actions doesn't show that she cares about you as much as in the past.

    From what you've told us, it seems like this Matt guy has feelings for her. You need to make a decision. If you still want another shot with her, then let her know and go from there.

    If she doesn't feel the same way, then you need to let her go and move on with your life. Right now, you're just dragging out the healing process.

    When you finally decide to go into NC, you need to keep in mind that NC is to HEAL from the break up and NOT to win her back or make her realize what she's missing.
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    Dec 15, 2009, 04:31 PM

    Thanks again everyone for your responses. I have told her how I felt about the break up and how I feel about her about two days after we broke up (telling her I didn't agree and wanted to work on things). She responded by saying that she thinks breaking up is the best thing for both of us right now and she was just unhappy with where the relationship is going. She added the all famous: "My heart is telling me to stay with you, but my brain is telling me to get away." Basically she just wanted to end it easy without a fight or what not, which is probably what would have happened had we continued the way we were.

    Anyway, it is now six days after the break up and I have six missed calls from her throughout the day. It is killing me because I want to answer to see how she feels, BUT, having the biggest final exam of my life tomorrow, I texted her and said I don't want to talk with her until my finals are over, which is this Wednesday, and proceeded to shut my phone off.

    Anyone thing that was wrong of me? Or did I do the right thing?
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    #26

    Dec 15, 2009, 04:43 PM

    Focus on your exam. Worry about her when you're less busy. Get your priorities straight.
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    Dec 15, 2009, 11:32 PM

    Taking a break from studies, and they are going great. I am going to ace this thing tomorrow. I feel that cutting off communication with the ex by saying I didn't want to talk to her until after finals week was over was a good thing. Also shutting my phone off was good because I don't have as big of an urge to text her or call her, or answer when she calls me (which I haven't done since Sunday).

    I know she is going to call me every day until she talks to me, but I'm not sure what to do. Like I said, it was a mutual break up which she recommended because 'we fight too much (I said just as much as any normal couple)', 'we don't communicate (I said its hard because we are so far apart and I was trying my best, things will be better when we live together and are around each other more)', 'she loves me in her heart, but her head doesn't want it (this one hurt me good)', and 'I don't show her I care about her (I did everything in my power with her being 45 minutes away AND me being in college to show her I love her with all my heart).' I'm still on the fence with these two possibilities after doing some research the other day:

    1. She really doesn't love me anymore but is still saying she loves me to make the breakup easier on her, and so that I still stick around for a little while so she feels secure until she is over it. OR

    2. She does want a relationship, but is scared as to what is going to happen after I graduate. I am getting a degree in accounting, she lives in a small town with little opportunity, but I still told her I would make it work. I also said I wasn't going to move in with her right out of college so I could settle down for about a month and get used to the real world. This did not fly with her.

    Since I'm taking a break, anyone else have any opinions/answers as to when and IF I should call her again or my situation in general?
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    #28

    Dec 16, 2009, 12:15 AM
    I wish you the best of luck with your exam-keep that phone switched off,good choice-and try not to think about her or what she might be thinking.
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    #29

    Dec 16, 2009, 12:40 AM

    Should I really be the one cutting communication though. I know it is right to do until exams are up, but I was the one who did take her for granted and didn't go see her every opportunity I had this semester. I just figured she would always be there for me, we would live together at the end of the semester, and everything would be back to normal. Maybe I am just thinking too much into it.

    As I have read somewhere else, if she really does feel all those things she told me, she wouldn't just end the relationship. She would stick through it with me this semester and help repair it at the end of the semester while we lived together.
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    #30

    Dec 16, 2009, 01:39 AM
    When two people are truly committed to each other,they put in a mutual effort to work things out. They don't go on breaks or breakup to sort out whatever confusion there is.
    In fact the person who initiates the break/breakup is not willing to put any more effort into the relationship.
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    Dec 16, 2009, 05:11 AM

    @amicon: I told her that we need to work out our (well her) problems together the day she broke it off. She proceeded by telling me that she told me her problems before, but I never did anything to fix them (which is FAR from the truth).

    @I Wish: You said about the whole Matt thing, that I need to make a decision. I would like to get back with her, so you think I should tell her this so soon? I guess given the circumstances it would be the best option, but what if I am totally wrong about it and there is nothing with this Matt kid? Then I would make myself look desperate and needy to her, when I should really be looking busy and not as available as when we were dating.

    Confused...
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    #32

    Dec 16, 2009, 07:13 AM
    I'm not sure if we're on the same page in terms of "feelings". When I mean feelings, I mean "wanting to get back together" and not your opinion about Matt.

    Letting her know about your feelings puts the ball on her side of the court. In other words, after you let her know that you want her back, it's up to her whether she wants to take you back. You should know that there's no guarantee that she will take you back.

    It's not about being desperate or bothering her, it's about making yourself clear that there are no misunderstandings.
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    Dec 17, 2009, 01:28 AM
    Thank you for this advice. I am going to do this tomorrow, tell her what I want from the relationship and basically say that I want her to evaluate our situations and think about any possibility of a relationship for a few days/weeks. Ill tell her I don't want her calling and I won't call her and she can call me when she feels ready.

    Just sucks because I did text her the night before one of the biggest finals of my college career by saying "I dont want to answer the phone or talk to you until I finish this final tomorrow. I know you will understand. Ill call you after my final tomorrow night." I shut my phone off and didn't turn it on until an hour before my final. She replied by sending me one, and only one text saying "No, I dont understand." Crushed me.

    After my final ended at 7:30 I texted her "Hey Im done with my finals. Are you busy?" No response... I called her about 3 hours later and she didn't answer. Haven't heard a peep out of her since. I can't stop checking OUR myspace, her Facebook, etc. to see just what she is up to. Now that finals are over it is back to me being literally sick over the situation. I can only eat one meal a day, she is all I talk about with my friends/family, and she is all I think about when I am alone. I truly love this girl with everything I have and want nothing more than to be with her for the rest of my life. I told her this a few days after one of our fights 2 weeks ago, when she was saying she isn't happy with the relationship, and she tells me "I want you to think about this; It takes us almost breaking up for you to tell me that, just think about that." Although I HAVE told her this before, this comment also destroyed me. Its like she has just been pushing me away lately.

    I was so close to buying her THE ring so I could propose after I graduated because everything seemed to be going just right with me graduating, us getting a place in her hometown, and me filling out tons of applications at firms around her town. I guess I just need someone to tell me what they think about this.
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    #34

    Dec 17, 2009, 03:37 AM
    You need to go NC-you're letting this run your life and your letting this run you down. She's not knocking on your door wanting to sort things out,she's playing you and you are letting her. Sorry to be harsh but you can stop the games by stepping back and picking your life up again. Find your selfrespect,move forward, live your life. We've all had to do this at some point or other in our lives and that's the way it should be.
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    Dec 17, 2009, 07:37 AM

    Leave her alone, what's wrong with just taking time and space to get your act together without her. She isn't trying to get you back, she is trying to blame you for not being there when she wants you. That's a guilt game that its best not to play.

    Keep NC going for yourself, and make plans for your future without her. Now you can be as emotional as you want but the clear signal is she needs control of this relationship. Its you who need to re evaluate this situation, and fact is your still dumped and that's her choice, and that hasn't changed.

    Take the time to see clearly, and make a rational choice, and not one that your heart is telling you. Leave her alone, she needs to get her act together.
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    Dec 19, 2009, 12:54 PM

    Update:

    She texted me this morning saying: "I dont even know what to say to you. If you cared about us you wouldn't have ignored me for a day" (referring to the day I ignored her because I had to study for finals)

    I replied: "All I have done is cared about us. I didn't want to talk on Tuesday because I had the most important final ever and felt that if we talked I wouldn't be able to give 100% to our conversation. I thought you would understand because if I did this a month ago you would have said you understand and good luck on my final, but you ignored me for the next two days. I love you with all that I have and you are all I care about, and all I want is for us to be together and work on our problems."

    She replied: "I spoke to you every day for 2 1/2 years and then you deliberately ignore me. You ignoring me tells me that we are not that important. Actions speak louder than words (I feel she is being a hypocrite here). A relationship is more about balance than sacrifice and you sacrificed us instead of balancing your time. That was a choice you made."



    I proceeded to call her after this telling her how I felt. I told her again that if this had been a month ago she wouldn't be so upset and she would have supported me and wished me luck on my finals, which she didn't do. She goes on to tell me that "this isn't a blame game and that she is so angry with me she doesn't even consider us friends right now." I also told her that if she really wanted to be with me and loved me she would have continued the relationship and worked out our problems rather than breaking up with me and rebuilding it that way because that only made things worse between us. Instead of saying I agree with you, or I disagree with you, she continued to act selfish and say "this isn't a blame game, why are you blaming me for this?" AHHHHHHHH


    I just want someone to analyze this situation and tell me if I am doing anything wrong here? I'm telling her how I feel and what I want but she just seems to find the need to yell and me and put me down. Thanks for any advice.
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    Dec 19, 2009, 01:13 PM
    You've told her how you feel and how you would like things to proceed,she is angry and yells- so nothing has changed,she's still in control, you are still confused and my question is: how much longer are you going to let this run your life? She broke up with you-leave her to her games and go NC.
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    Dec 19, 2009, 01:34 PM
    Quote Originally Posted by amicon View Post
    You've told her how you feel and how you would like things to proceed,she is angry and yells- so nothing has changed,she's still in control, you are still confused and my question is: how much longer are you going to let this run your life? She broke up with you-leave her to her games and go NC.
    Thanks amicon. I don't want this to go any longer if she keeps acting this way. I was just asking, am I wrong in what I said/did? I don't think I did anything wrong here and I just want to hear someone else's opinion.
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    #39

    Dec 19, 2009, 01:52 PM

    No you spoke your piece like an adult -nothing wrong there. But when its not going anywhere its time to regroup.
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    Dec 19, 2009, 03:23 PM

    You expressed yourself, and what more evidence do you need to leave her alone, and stop talking to her??

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