[chavella_thomas]

Well my boyfriend I've been with for allmost 2 years long distance relationship he was in a rehab and we grow in to deeply love each other but as time passed he was about to leave the rehab in go on his own but I stuck by him threw it all even when he left the program and he began to leave from house to house because he. Couldn't aford the rent so he was paroled to his father house and him in his father got into it than he moved to his sister house and after a while she push him out the door he ended right back at his father building once again but this time he started staying with his grandmother she started pushing him away to but he link up with his homeboy and talk to him and his homeboy told him he had a appt for him but he would have to pay 500 dollars a month but I guess his homeboy wanted him to pay 150 a week but it advadge out to 500 a month but anyway he works for a company that doesn't pay the same each week because he's on parole and he has to leave early on thurdays to go to the out paitent program meeting meaning he have to work half of the day witch cut he's pay checks no he's living in his apptment now it make it looked like it was comtable to live in but maybe he meant it was comtable for him but whatever the case maybe he started spending money to come see me that he really didn't have but he didn't care cause he really wanted to see me but what I didn't understand if you clam you miss your after a 5 hour drive and we get here and we make love and you start arugments about me cheating and me exchanging num out to a male friend that was having lots of problems crying out for my help to cure the pain what is wrong for helping a friend out doent mean you wanta sleep with him now the last time he came here he bought up why I exchange num with the guy I told him he needed someone to talk to I told my boy friend the truth he ask and I told him now its like he bring up the past every chance he could get I ask him did he love me he tells me yea but than I ask him later and he won't tell me sense he moved in the apartment it like he no happy maybe cause he's not happy there or what I really don't know but I've notice he takes his problems out on drinking than he calls me and if I take to long to pick up the phone I got to be cheating so when I do pick up to explain that I was sleeping he calls me all types of hoe ed retards and dumm es and it hurts cause I'm very emotional when it comes down to situation like that I think he's dranks too much and he does things he not suppose to due when he dranks and its carry to me I don't know if he's cheating on me or not cause he won't tell me if he is but he likes to hurt me because he's holding pain from the past and won't let it go like if I'm the prey when he thinks of what happen to him in the past I mean who do he think he is to call me names and take his fustration out on me? I'm struggling in going threw pain to but I'm calm with it he's not maybe I could handle it better than he can but we got into a big argument 2days ago cause he first told me that his boy was calling he told me to hangon the line so I did next thing you know he tells me his boy is at the door than he calls me back and tell me he's stepin out for a min at11pm in the night so I got upset and text him and told him it was over and min later he called I didn't pick up the phone and he got mad saying he wanted to talk to me and I was acting childish cause I wouldn't pick up the phone the reason why I didn't pick up because I knew he was going to curse me but the next morning I called him and we talk and I told him how I felt and we began to get alone and I told him that I was planing a trip to come see him on a thurday he hurried up and said no no I have to work and your going to be in here by yourself and I said what's wrong with that its your apptment right I said do your boy have the keys he said yea I said OK don't he call before he comes and anyway you llways tells me you have to let your boy end I mean which one is it got me lost now than he told me today when I finally talk to him that he going threw something right now I told him let's talk about it he said why you can't help me I said well why you've been avoiding my calls he said he going threw something and he don't want talk right now should I give him his space even though he broke up with me or no ?

[chavella_thomas]

What should I do about my story my thoughts?