[AKeagle]

Okay, maybe your friend had lost sensitivity, but you know, what if all your friends knew and you bumped into her not knowing? You would have been just as mad. It was a damned if you do and damned if you dont. In this instance, I would not kill the messenger.

Also, grieve for this loss as you need to. But at some point, quit giving her the power to bring you down. When you can do this you will truly be liberated.

And lastly, sometimes misfortune is in the eye of the beholder. Really, change your glasses and start looking at life as if it was not all against you. It just is what it is. And then improve upon it. Always look for a way to improve and make it a little bit better.

Really, I understand your setback. But I would rather have the knowledge than be blindsided. I also agree with tal in that just react with a oh. how nice.

Good luck

I agree, look at things as a positive learning experience, OK.

I disagree about the damned if I do, damned if I don't. If I wanted to find out about her life it would be all to easy, but I'm busy living. IF I bump into her, doubt full, she moved closer to home, and goes to her parents house all the time. I'm running away fom that place. I work in the city and go further into the city when I can, the only I ever go home, I'm at my families house. I don't hangout or talk to any of her friends. But there is always a chance, but I still, even if I saw her I wouldn't approach her.

[AKeagle]

Late night thought

Spent the day to myself, then went out with my cousin. In the early afternoon I had a talk to my friend that told me the info about my ex, and told her I would prefer to not hear any information about my ex (unless its something serious), probably wrong.

After I came home from going out with my cousin I pulled out my notebook and just started writing, and my ex came up in my writing. It is not my problem but it helped to write it out and configure my thoughts.

"i can't believe this is happening, i'm mad my friend ruined my great night. but at the same time this info has pushed my further into moving forward. no matter what i think about this situation, my opinion will not matter in the outcome. she has choose to make this decision, good or bad. I do not wish misfortune on anyone, so i guess, "GOOD LUCK"."

I do think what she is doing is a little dumb but who am I to judge? If it's a ploy to receive attention from me, "please do enjoy my silence", I will not react to this, if she is trying to talk to me by doing this, WOW, did she forget that phones exist. ( I have no idea if its true or not ) That said I do need to watch who I talk to.

I have heard too many stories about people getting married at young ages and it just couldn't work, (they don't know each other well enough) it is none of my business I just hope that if it goes sour that there are no kids involved.

On a funny note, anyone here have an idea for a congratulation gift. One that says, ENJOY!! cough, cough

[amicon]

You re doing fine-as for gift-a box of tissues? Well you did say cough cough! :-)

[AKeagle]

Is it just me or is she rushing things with this guy so that she feels secure and this guy is just going along with whatever?

I feel that I haven't heard the end of this...

[kctiger]

is it just me or is she rushing things with this guy so that she feels secure and this guy is just going along with whatever?

i feel that i haven't heard the end of this.......

Just me but I bet she is enjoying her life a lot more than you are because she isn't worrying about you! Get to living!

[AKeagle]

Just me but I bet she is enjoying her life a lot more than you are because she isn't worrying about you! Get to livin!

I highly doubt that. I'm not engaged :-) even more I haven't into something that deep so soon, it's a plan for failure

[kctiger]

Who cares about her plans? Stop caring about her and start caring more for yourself... sounds good right?

[AKeagle]

Who cares about her plans? Stop caring about her and start caring more for yourself...sounds good right?

Yes it does

None the less I have been laughing about what has just happening, and looking at it and scratching my head "are you serious, wow, they just need to add gasoline to that and it would be complete"

KC,

Can you honestly tell me that what she is doing isn't crazy, and would probably end in a bad way?

[talaniman]

Originally Posted by AKeagle
is it just me or is she rushing things with this guy so that she feels secure and this guy is just going along with whatever?

Its just you, dwelling in someone else's business.

Originally Posted by AKeagle
I feel that I haven't heard the end of this...

Stop listening.

[amicon]

Its when we stop worrying about them and what they re doing or thinking etc and start taking care of ourselves that we can start finding out who WE are.we have to let go of the people in our lives who don't empower us.

[AKeagle]

its when we stop worrying about them and what they re doing or thinking etc and start taking care of ourselves that we can start finding out who WE are.we have to let go of the people in our lives who dont empower us.

Why do people keep telling me that I'm not living?

Does everyone here think I'm locked in my room curled in a corner or something?

Like seriously, I have work to accomplish everyday, I have stuff to take care of with my family (helping my grandfather take care of his house and my grandmother), I have my own personal computer projects, I workout every week, and have taken up scuba driver (something I have always wanted to learn) and on top of that I have a social life with all my friends. I rarely even talk about her, it comes up in passing when people ask where she is or how is she, other than that it doesn't.

I'm just looking at this, (even if she wasn't my ex) that who ever got engaged after 2 months of being with people is just asking for trouble

[paxe]

why do people keep telling me that i'm not living?

does everyone here think i'm locked in my room curled in a corner or something?

like seriously, i have work to accomplish everyday, i have stuff to take care of with my family (helping my grandfather take care of his house and my grandmother), i have my own personal computer projects, i workout every week, and have taken up scuba driver (something i have always wanted to learn) and on top of that i have a social life with all my friends. i rarely even talk about her, it comes up in passing when people ask where she is or how is she, other than that it doesn't.

i'm just looking at this, (even if she wasn't my ex) that who ever got engaged after 2 months of being with people is just asking for trouble

I guess it's an easy answer to tell you to get a life, but you are the one asking yourself all those questions. I guess you are entitled to question her but what we are trying to tell you is that you need to let go. It is going to take a bit of time but you'll forget about her. The why is not important right now.

If you want my opinion yes it's crasy what she is doing, and it is completely stupid... but then again it's her life and not yours anymore. I am a bit more advanced in the healing process, now I tend to not care what happens to my ex. You should soon have other worries than her actually as the memories will just fade away.

[AKeagle]

I guess it's an easy answer to tell you to get a life, but you are the one asking yourself all those questions. I guess you are entitled to question her

Entitled to ask her questions... I don't know, I'll never get the chance to ask her or get a straight answer. Its an open ended question... its just what I see, and because of that I question it to at least get it out

If you want my opinion yes it's crasy what she is doing, and it is completely stupid... but then again it's her life and not yours anymore. I am a bit more advanced in the healing process, now I tend to not care what happens to my ex. You should soon have other worries than her actually as the memories will just fade away.

I already have other thing I am thinking about, and it feels great.

Its only at awkward times that I feel sad about her leaving. For example, I went out with my cousin and one of my best friends and her cousin, we went out to one of my ex and I regular restaurant. I did not tell anyone before we went, cause that is where everyone else wanted to go. When the food came out, I just sat there, I don't know why, I caught myself and started to talk to everyone else. (happened last Friday before my friend called me with the news)

Another one, is when I went to visit some family a couple states away, I went by myself. I hadn't made the trip up there for 4 years without her. I drove the whole way up there without stopping (300 some miles) no cell phone service so I couldn't talk to people on the way up there, so I listened to music I had on my iPod. What I missed what the conversations her and I had during the drive. (was about 2 or 3 weeks ago)

[paxe]

entitled to ask her questions..... idk, i'll never get the chance to ask her or get a straight answer. its an open ended question...... its just what i see, and because of that i question it to at least get it out


its only at awkward times that i feel sad about her leaving. for example, i went out with my cousin and one of my best friends and her cousin, we went out to one of my ex and i regular restaurant. i did not tell anyone before we went, cause that is where everyone else wanted to go. when the food came out, i just sat there, idk why, i caught my self and started to talk to everyone else. (happened last friday before my friend called me with the news)

another one, is when i went to visit some family a couple states away, i went by myself. i hadn't made the trip up there for 4 years without her. i drove the whole way up there without stopping (300 some miles) no cell phone service so i couldn't talk to people on the way up there, so i listened to music i had on my ipod. what i missed what the conversations her and i had during the drive. (was about 2 or 3 weeks ago)

What I meant you are entitled to ask yourself this question, but also you need to let go after some time.

It happens to the best of us. It's a long part of our lives and there is always going to be some things that are going to remind us of them. After a while we just don't care and it's going to be: "oh, I went with my ex at that place, I think they have great pasta", and then you'll think about pasta... makes me hungry.

[AKeagle]

What I meant you are entitled to ask yourself this question, but also you need to let go after some time.

It happens to the best of us. It's a long part of our lives and there is always going to be some things that are going to remind us of them. After a while we just don't care and it's going to be: "oh, I went with my ex at that place, I think they have great pasta", and then you'll think about pasta... makes me hungry.

yeah I know, that's why I do that every once and awhile, helps num the pain more after each time. Though I am doing a lot of things I use to do with my ex, I'm enjoying the alone time, like going shooting, riding (she wouldn't ride cause of something happened in her past), scuba diving (never could convince her to do that, I will, lol) some of these offer chances to meet new people. I'm very random when it comes to talking to people, if I see a car that looks cool, I got introduce myself to the owner and start talking. Someone that looks like a rider (can usually tell by the outfit) I start a conversation about horses and what not. Etc

[sully123]

Don't give up Akeagle, your on the right track. You will always have memories, and its just that certain times that trigger them off. You wouldn't be normal, if you didn't feel that way. Your heading in the right direction, just stay strong and work on you. Good luck.

[talaniman]

Its just a matter of getting use to her not sharing in your life. It will get better and your doing fine. Just takes time.

[AKeagle]

adding from wht the last answer said,
while your expericeing this break up, try to control your anger, because if u want any relationship to grow , u must find a common ground, limit your self don't let your depression get the best of you.

Seems to me the majority of my depression left when she did. (maybe with her around I could never get past the times I could have lost my life. Just a thought)

Other than that, sometimes when I'm lifting, but that could be cause I have a goal and I'm focused trying to achieve it. (it goes away during my cool down period) after that it only occures when my friend decided to shoot my in the foot. I have since talked to her, asking her to not tell me anything about her, if I would like to know I will find out for myself. I don't want that to be our only bound in our friendship

[paxe]

Well it seems you're mostly over of getting over her as long as you try to forget her slowly.

[AKeagle]

I think I need to cut ties with a couple more friends of ours.

other thought and I think a couple people will disagree with what I have done.

first off, I have no problem approaching people randomly, males or females its easy to strike a conversation. When it comes to girls I kind of get carried away with flirting where I have to walk away before I dig a grave for myself.

my friend (no connection to ex) is having her 21st Birthday party soon, in the city. She asked me if I was bringing anyone with me. I said I hadn't really thought about it. I thought right away about this girl that I knew, for some reason I never seem to get into the groove when it comes to talking or being around her, whenever I try my best I always mess up. The catch is that she has had feelings for me for the last 4 years, so we haven't done a whole lot of talking cause of my ex. After my ex left, we talked for about 3 weeks. Then she got got mad cause she thought I was trying to use her ( I wasn't), so she told me not to contact her, which I did up until about the beginning of this week. Today I asked her if she would like to go with me to my friends birthday party and she said yes.