[expat2009]

Good one mate! It must be even harder to maintain NC when you still bump to each other every now and again. Can't imagine what I would do in the same situation. You are making a lot of progress for yourself. Keep it up and one day she won't pop into your mind even once.

[chuff]

Yall know Saturday I had to see her again...well as I was walking from outside...she was sitting there eating and she spoke and said hello, so I said hi...and went on about my business as usual...

Nice. What you did hear was two things. The first is you let her come to you, even in the greeting she came to you with the initial greeting. The second was, you walked on. It's not who she was expecting. You told her through actions you don't need her. You are slowly reclaiming your power over her.

[Sweet_Guy23]

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[talaniman]

Keep on truckin' and you'll get there.

[Sweet_Guy23]

Will I ever get to the point to where she won't matter to me anymore... I still think about her often... thats pretty much about it though... but I want it to get to the point where if I see her, even if she is all dolled up and looking good it won't affect me at all... no butterflies, or nervousness just nothing... You know?

One thing that I am grateful for is that I don't beat myself up anymore... all the:

"I should of did this better"

"I should of did that more"

"If I wouldn't have said that, me and her would still be together"

"If I didn't allow the hurt and confusion and the frustration to boggle my mind then..."

I've stopped all of that because of the main fact that I am a good person, and she never made any action to try to work things out

Her mom told me a few months ago that

"When she broke up with me that the only reason she came to me was because everybody was telling her how wrong she was. She felt GUILTY, she didnt come back to me because she really wanted to...she didn't want that guilt to hang over her."

So she was basically just going through the motions... didn't apologized for anything, but she sured told me how wrong I was... you know?

I mean she didn't even sit back and evaluate the situation and think to herself:

"Hey Kevin must really be hurt and confused behind what I did to him emotionally"

Its like she didn't care... or if she did, she didn't show it...

And she didn't LOVE me at all...

[chuff]

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What is this?

[kctiger]

It is almost like his computer has a mind of its own. He has some of the most double posts and random posts I have ever seen... idle hands? :)

[Sweet_Guy23]

I was trying to change something and ended up messing up that post... sorry...

But you guys understand where I'm coming from on that post right..