Maybe you being scared of taking the big plunge is your way of protecting yourself. Anyone who has lost their virginity too early knows that it reaps you of your innocence and you are never the same. I think it's a damn good thing you haven't wasted your body on some moron, that you would have regretted already. Sex isn't bad and you will have to overcome those fears and issues surrounding your view of it. However, it does take time. You will have to change the messages in your head that make you think its wrong and immoral. It is a beautiful way of sharing love and creating life. It should be something you do freely and without reservation. YOu will know when you want to do it with someone. IT doesn't always go the way we want to, but you are an adult now. This means you can decide if the time is right. Trust your judgment, know you are a good person and when you are ready to make the decision, know that you have had the time to make the right choice. Don't hesitate to enjoy your life sexually, it just has to come slowly, with time, and with someone you really trust with your body. OH, I am sure you know to be safe. I think many people wish they could have their virginity at 19 because when you are a few years younger, you don't really know what you are doing anyway. It is usually not that enjoyable and you feel guilty after. No guilt for you!!
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