[Couple_knox]

Long story, I've been accused of cheating for 2 years fairly consistently.
I have endure the going through of my phone & computer. While I never checked my partners, then a few months back I happened to be near their phone when it lit up with a text " GM I am thinking of you!" From a previous relationship.
So later that day like everyday I was asked "Did you get any special text today?" My reply " No, Did you?" and there reply was "No".
Then again a few days later but from a different person. " I am really looking forward to getting to know you better" again same questions at end of the day. Same results "No". The 2nd person I looked up on social media and ask who that new person was and the reply was " Just and old co-worker", which with a little research I found to be a lie.
Here is the bad part, in the following days I had gotten a message from a previous relationship, "asking how I have been?". So we talked and about my situation, and agreed it didn't look good and that person was cheating. Well being emotionally ruined I didn't ask or wanted to because I already knew of the lies. I cheated, and had gotten caught almost immediately afterwards because of soy tactics they were using all along.

I feel guilty, I feel ashamed, but I still feel my partner cheated or why would they be going through such great measure to catch me when all the time I wasn't.