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Feb 18, 2010, 08:13 PM
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I need any helps. My mother tongue is not English so you may have some difficulty to understand this story. So here it is. Me and my girl friend were really good friends for about 2 years. We talked a lot and laugh. Then I asked if we can be in a relationship. She said no first time even I asked again again. Then next day she said she didn’t mean no. But I took the answer as no. So we were starting our relationship. But I have an issue. I lost my family from car accident. So I decided not to love anyone because I don’t want to feeling of losing someone I love. So I took a big step. But she also has depression. We were good in the beginning but after that I started jealous of her past and pushed her hard. So she wanted to broke up with me. It was hard then I noticed what I had done and told her. We go back together but I knew she were sad and if I said something about her past, she immediately crying. Then I stopped asking her and told her whenever you were ready. It was she got divorced. After she told me that I was kind of mad because I asked her before if she has even been married. Not once but several times. But I also understand why she had to do that. Then I talked to her that I was disappointed of her that she lied to me. Her answer was none of your business as usual. But I thought it was my business. I saw her sad face all the time and tried not to hurt her without know the reason. I thought her ex cheated on her, so I let her know my Facebook password and tried to prove her I won’t cheat on her. Then we start argue. She said we don’t have future together and we are not in serious relationship. She always said she will never marry. I didn’t know the reason at the time. And she confused me many times. She said she wants to have a dog with me and wants to go my country. She said we will break up one day. I was confused and we broke up 4 times in less than one year. I was the one went back to her and we backed together. I thought she just scared of my age. I am 8years younger than her and she is my first girlfriend. She is around 30. She said I’m too young and inexperienced. I felt whenever she noticed that I was in her heart she pushed me away and I got confused and put myself up and went back to her. Then she pushed me again. She said I love you and it is something else. She was madly in love with someone but the guy didn’t want get marry with her because of her past. But I don’t care. I decided that I will not give up on her like that. So last time we broke up which is little over month ago, I was disappointed and little upset of her lie but I do understand her at the same time. Then she said we will break up and we are not in serious relationship. I got mad and said I can take this anymore. “how do u feel if I am playing with u now. I will dump u.” she said “ok” I went little farther “so what if I just want to have sex with u” she said “fine” then I crossed the line” so what is difference hooker and u?” she said “nothing” and she cried and said “I am hooker” and wanted me to leave her alone. I didn’t. I said I’m sorry I just upset of your comment but I never thought like that and don’t think you are hooker. She wanted me to leave. I didn’t. I pushed her so hard. Then she said she would call police. Then I left. After that she obviously didn’t want to talk to her so I send many emails how I felt and I am sorry. Then she said it is the time, we are break up but we are friends. This time I also have enough. But I don’t want her to be my friend because I will hurt her. She snaked around me while we were in relationship. One time she came to city where I live. It is 50min drive. She said she will meet her guy friend and will come to my house at mid night. I waited but didn’t called me till 1. I called her many times after that because I was worried about her. Then her phone got off. Then at 2 she called me back and say it was silence and didn’t know why it turned off and she said she wanted to go back home because it is too late. Second time happened with the same guy. He asked her to come to international student meeting. He just want to have asian girls to have sex with. I was with her when he asked her to come over the phone. But she said she wasn’t sure. I wanted to come also but she said he didn’t invited me. So I came home and text her good night but she didn’t reply so I thought she went to sleep. I said I guess you went to sleep so sweet dream. 2days later, I guess, she spoke another guy friend and he asked me if we were still together. And they talked and he said to her that she should snaked around behind me. Then she called me and told me all and cryied. I talked to her today. I was trying to do no connect rule. But she sent me an email about chocolate I gave her but I gave it 2 weeks ahead of valentine’s day. She said I’m lovely. I talked to her the way she talked to me confused me and gave a bit of hope. She said she won't comeback. And I am inexperienced and she doesn’t feel she is in relationship with me. But want me to be her friend. I said I cannot.
So I want to know what I could have done better and what I can learn from this mistake. Ya I do love her even thought she was married woman. I don’t care other people. I just only want to be with her. She doesn’t want to marry again, I’m fine but my goal is just be with her. But I don’t know if I’m madly in love with her. I do think of her every day before we broke up. I don’t know the feeling I have on her. Simply I can say I am just really like, and love to be with her.
Any advice will be great help for my life. There are still more stories I didn’t write here because it would be too long and I don’t know how to organized. Thanks for reading my story. Please be cruel for me. What I have done wrong and what I should have done and what I can do now and for my future.
She also said today she probably will cheat on me because there is always possability. I asked her if she have even done on me. She said no. she just loves me as person like brother and friend. But how come I keep thinking there is story like she had a baby her home country and she cannot say to me because I will leave her so she wants to stop here. Something like that. There is something holding her. I am needy :D loser:D but it is OK I gave her all my heart even I know that I can deal with lossing someone who I love. She think it is not love and I will know some time in my life which is not respectable of my feeling. But if she is not breave enough to hold me and open up her mind even though it might hurt her badly if we break up, she will lose me. Her lost. Hopefully. She is stronger than me.. :D
2days later, I guess, she spoke another guy friend and he asked me her if we were still together. And they talked and he said to her that she should not snaked snuck around behind me. Then she called me and told me all and cryied. I talked to her today. I was trying to do no connect rule. But she sent me an email about chocolate I gave her but I gave it 2 weeks ahead of valentine’s day. She said I’m lovely. I talked to her the way she talked to me confused me and gave a bit of hope. She said she won't comeback. And I am inexperienced and she doesn’t feel she is in relationship with me. But want me to be her friend. I said I cannot.
So I want to know what I could have done better and what I can learn from this mistake. Ya I do love her even thought she was married woman. I don’t care other people. I just only want to be with her. She doesn’t want to marry again, I’m fine but my goal is just be with her. But I don’t know if I’m madly in love with her. I do think of her every day before we broke up. I don’t know the feeling I have on her. Simply I can say I am just really like, and love to be with her.
Any advice will be great help for my life. There are still more stories I didn’t write here because it would be too long and I don’t know how to organized. Thanks for reading my story. Please be cruel for me. What I have done wrong and what I should have done and what I can do now and for my future.[/QUOTE]
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Feb 18, 2010, 10:25 PM
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May I ask. How old are you. Is this your first relationship that you have had? I believe the right person is out there for everyone but it takes time, trial and error for that person to be found. I spent eight years in a horrible relationship. He cheated on me the whole time and I didn't know. You don't deserve to be with someone who "thinks they could cheat" If she is a married woman I do not think you should have had a relationship with her to begin with. (no offence) but.. being married means commitment and if she is married then she is not being faithful to her own husband so if she was single how could she be faithful to you. Now I might of read your post wrong. I hope I did not.
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Feb 19, 2010, 01:02 AM
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30-8 equals 22 years old
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Feb 19, 2010, 04:58 AM
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I am 25 and you it is my first relationship.. and she WAS married.. but not now.. she got divorced.. she hated the way I was acting.. asking her past and explain...
I think she might felt that I would never get over her past.. that makes her crazy.. but I was jealous of her past boyfriends but not anymore.. because he lets her go so I could have her.. but I still feel like I need to know her past.. seems like she couldn't open her mind to me and don't want to commit to anyone..
PS. My story and her story is different. I know I did manythings that hurt her. I'm not saying I did 100% right things..
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Uber Member
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Feb 19, 2010, 05:32 AM
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You should leave this in the past.
Go no contact and have nothing more to do with her.
Read the stickies at the top of the relationship page for more advice.
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Ultra Member
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Feb 19, 2010, 06:12 AM
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No contact, read the stickies at the top of the page to see that everyone can do this
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Feb 19, 2010, 07:09 AM
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I am trying but hard:D I did but she contact me then I talked to her how much she hurts me.. hope someone remove my heart
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Uber Member
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Feb 19, 2010, 07:32 AM
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You stop taking her calls,you don't reply to her texts-you act as if you dropped off the planet.
Most of us here have gone through our fair share of heartbreak and we have all had to pick ourselves up and get on with our lives.
You,too,can and will do this.
It takes time and patience but work on getting over her and you will.
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Feb 19, 2010, 07:41 AM
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You but hardiest thing is I still have hope we can work this out.. I have to get rid of that idea.. I cannot get her back.. I did 3times.. and she has to make a decision maybe she did. But if she wants me she needs to be breave enough to open up her mind and hold my hand.. I wish I could get rid of my hope..
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Expert
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Feb 19, 2010, 09:55 AM
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I feel for you, because you are faced with the hardest thing you will ever do, but the most important. You must accept reality, that this is not a healthy relationship for either of you, learn to cope with your feelings of loss, and disappointment, and move beyond this stage in your life to the next one.
You can only do that by leaving her alone, and giving yourself time to heal, and you will. That means stop all contact with her whatsoever. ANY contact at all will keep the false hope alive in you, and will stop the healing process altogether.
Yes its hard and will take a lot of time, but can be done if you get busy rebuild your life without her, and find activities, and people who you enjoy.
You can't change the past, nor can you change people, but you can change yourself, and that's the whole point. You are not alone, and as you read the advice, and stories of others who are going through what you are, and the stickies of how to heal, you will see that what has happened to you, and your loss, has happened to us all, many times.
You can do this, and be happy and healthy again. Better than before.
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Feb 19, 2010, 10:04 AM
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Thanks.. ya I read stickies.. it wasn't healthy relationship.. she didn't love me.. I thought she was lonely so she was with me.. she wanted some program I have.. I'll copy it and will give to her.. I'll do all I can do now.. so I don't want to regret it in my future and don't want to miss her a bit.. anyway thanks..
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Feb 19, 2010, 10:07 AM
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I would advise staying away from her in general. Printing something off and bringing it to her is going to keep you two seeing each other and its not going to help you heal and move on. Neither of you. You are going to miss her, everyone misses people, especially when they have to walk away but sometimes its got to be done
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Feb 19, 2010, 10:20 AM
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You I have to force myself hard.. thanks all of u
Do you guys think we can be friend again? We were really good friend for 2 years and dating 1year.. I don't think we can be friend again becaue I thnk it will hurt me if he date with another guys.. but she said she will be fine even if I date with another girl.. lose someone sucks
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Feb 19, 2010, 02:59 PM
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Maybe eventually but I don't think it would be a good idea in the near future.. until you actually fully heal
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Feb 19, 2010, 04:08 PM
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Thanks.. now I'm reading some articles about relationship and self confidence.. stuff like that.. I need to solve my problem first.. just checking if I have problem.. you I'm taking depression medication.. because I lost my family but didn't treat myself well.. just hiding my feeling and pretending I'm strong.. thanks for your support
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Uber Member
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Feb 20, 2010, 12:47 AM
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Have you considered counsiling?
It's helpful to talk through your problems with a good professional.
Take care and good luck.
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Feb 22, 2010, 09:16 AM
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What is love and what kind of love.
Threads merged
Hi.. first of all thanks for reading my post..
I just want to know what is real love and true love.. what doesn't it mean when people say I'm in madly in love? I think they don't know while they were madly in love but they would know after it is over...
My ex and my relationship was little more like friendship.. we had good friendship and I thought it was love.. I was comfortable and happy... just I love to be with her.. and wouldn't bother me if she is with me all the time.. she was sometime my friend and girl and sister.. but what she said to me WE ARE NOT MADLY IN LOVE..
I heard that if you want to have the best relationship (I don't know how I can explain this) don't love like fire, but love like coal fire?
If you love like fire, it will make you hot but it will be gone at some point but coal.. it won't make you hot as fire but I will make you warm and long time..
So I think fire is madly in love and coal is calm love(?)
Anyway what kind of love are you having and should I look for madly in love life fire? So coal like calm love?
And how do you know if you love like calm love like coal?
Sorry I think it doesn't make any sense..
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Emotional Health Expert
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Feb 22, 2010, 10:33 AM
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Actually, that makes a lot of sense.
The 'fire' madly in love stage, is euphoria, and falling in love is extremely exciting. At this stage, for some, it is hard to separate the flame from the fire.
Once the flame has died down, and reality starts to sink in, the coals are left. At this stage, you can still have very intense feelings for a person, but in a more realistic way. You get to know them, develop a friendship, share common goals, and the coal becomes the foundation for commitment and a long future together.
The fire stage does not last long. That 'animal' attraction eventually wears off, and you are left in a more comfortable, realistic place where you can see the coals past the fire.
Real love is realistic, and passes the test of time, with two people who have built a foundation of trust. Partners together.
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Feb 22, 2010, 10:56 AM
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First of all thanks for your post..
I don't know if I translate my language to english clearly.. but what I heard that is some couples love like intense fire.. I don't know if it is all about physical attraction or something.. but they said it is love like hug strong fire but it won't last long.. and some people says they love like coal.. they never have flam of fire.. it has calm start.. like softly the person take a place in your heart.. I think I was like that.. and I wasn't sure if it was love.. ya big honest I didn't know if I was in love.. because I couldn't notice anything.. but people noticed.. one of my friend, after I had my first sex with my first girl.. he said I looked happy and asked me what happened.. had smile on my face.. maybe because it was first but it was like what I expect.. I felt like, "not a big as i thought":D and when she was really sad after she saw her psychiatrist.. I also have depression but I was so so sad.. and never thought someone can make me sad.. I don't know if it is love.. because she told me " u will see and u will know what is love." you it is disrepectable comment of my feeling.. so I don't know if it is love or not.. I mean if it WAS love or not.. I think I have to find out by myself but I just want to know others idea.. lust and love and something seems like love..
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Feb 22, 2010, 11:01 AM
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And also she told me there is not CRUSH... you what I want to say is love like crush wouldn't go last and think it is lust.. not love.. I mean real and true love.. I don't know.. and hope I don't disrespect others by saying this..
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