[talaniman]

I finally listened to you guys and sent out a email to the girl. What do you guys think?

Who suggested you send her an email? I went back, and the suggestion was to get a life, and leave her alone. The rest of that BS, is your doing.

Accept you need to be a better listener, and not so hard headed, or impulsive.

Reread this thread, and take a few good suggestions.

[Syzygy]

It's not the email that finalized things. Her mind was already finalized when this decision was made. She tells you about her new beaus because she wants you to know just how fine she is doing without you but she makes sure you tell you how much she misses you and wants to see you because she still wants you on her leash. This way, she gets the best of both worlds - new guys to flirt with and spice up her life and you, her support and foundation of 4 years. She's probably having a blast knowing she will always have you there, running to her when she needs a fallback while she can have all the fun she wants to with these other guys.

You have to go NC right now. I know how tough it is; I've had to do it before. You're in a new school - enjoy yourself. Force yourself to go to the library away from your computer and purposely leave your cell phone at home. Read books you enjoy or sit on campus and study. Get away from the closure if your apartment/home and put yourself in a public area. When your thoughts wander to her, force yourself to focus on how she called you names and how she has taken advantage of you. It will take time but only you can take the steps in moving on.