[Boristheblade]

"D.B"

I went out with you against my better judgement, forgave you for abandoning me when I was pregnant to dillydally with your ex and as I'm sure you remember we were so happy in our honeymoon phase. I was all too happy to be with someone I'd dreamed about being with and you were so happy to be with someone you liked so much-that was so grateful to be with you.

I remember the first time we fell out like it was yesterday, I remember telling you about how to communicate properly, I remember you telling me that you felt a weight had been lifted because I showed you how to effectibvely deal with problems. You called me your sunshine. I thought that was the end of silly arguments and break ups but you didn't stop.

You kept causing arguments and breaking up with me for silly reasons. Apologised and told me you'd do better. I was naïve enough to believe you-up and down we went. Me crying, you apologising. I remember the day you told me you were thinking about getting back with your ex- I told you I'd understand if you did. You said you didn't mean it. We argued about her so much and you convinced me it was me you wanted me I guess I really believed it that time you said "I love you Lola" in your sleep.

But you didn't stop, remember before we went out you said if I brought any drama you'd end it straight away? I never did it was always you. You're 21 I'm 17 but I was always the mature one, the reasonable and rational one. You acted up so much, you were posessive, you were aggressive. I had enough. You humiliated me that night on new years eve in the club. How could you break up with me like that in front of everyone? Then the next day we met and I saw a change in you, and that is the only reason I decided to give it another shot, it's like it finally hit you what you had with me,

It wasn't to last though was it babes? The next day who talks to me? Your ex. What does she say? You'd been cheating on me with her. AGAIN I left you, you proved to me you meant what you said and you hadn't been talking to her. I guess I thought and wanted to believe you've changed. You didn't.

I remember June the 2nd when you said you "didn't feel the same anymore" I remember how much it hurt that I'd stuck by you through ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING just for you to say that to me. Most people's pain ends there. Sacrificed so much for a relationship not worth it-they break up and it hurts but that's that. No it gets worse for me doesn't it babe, that was barely the beginning of my heartache.

I find out you'd been seeing your ex for nearly a month before you split with me and THAT'S why you brokeup with me. Found out you still love her and NEVER loved me. All the time I thought you did- I still ca't believe it. I told you so many times to tell me if its her you wanted you didn't, you strung me along knowing I was in love.

Then I find out from HER you'd slept with someone behind my back. You didn't care how much it broke my heart "get over it" you said when I told you I knew. I didn't ever talk to you but it wasn't enough for you to know you broke up with me, broke my heart by cheating on me, being with your ex all the time during and straight after our relationship. You talked about RESTRAINING ORDERS for NO REASON, other than to HUMILIATE ME. THIS IS ME YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO MARRY, ME THAT YOU LOVED??

It gets worse. I miscarry our baby I didn't even know . Do you care? No. Of course you said I'm an attention seeker. When you found out it was really true after faffing about for weeks we meet up and I thought you'd really look after me then. But you couldn't be arsed, that was as much support I got from you who I called my best friend, who called me his BEST FRIEND. Do you know how much that HURT AND STILL DOES?? I literally gave you my world and didEVERYTHING to make us work, FORGAVE you through my pain and I lose our baby and you sit around your ex that you sworrrrrre you didn't loves house eating chinese while I lay in hospital, alll the times I was there you never came to see me. All the things you said about me, telling everyone I'm fat when I'm a 34" 28" 37". Your ex always asked me what I did to you for you to behave abhorrently, I give you the answer you always gave me when i used to ask you what id done to you for you to treat me so abhorrently.

NOTHING.

Now i'm alone, I hate you but I love you, I think of you all the time, dream of you all the time, I miss you so much it takes my breath away. I talk about you sometimes, people laugh at all the things we did together, we're such funny people, they laugh at our jokes and everyone agrees we are so compatible. But you ruined everything. Turned my world upside down. Remember when you wanted to date me and you said "you should get with a nice guy like me for a change" because I told you about my unkind ex. Look how nice you were? I put myself through so much for you to be happy. I have to watch while you parade around with your ex, I've seen the converstaions you know, "you know you're the only girl for me" do you know how that FEELS? Instead of asking me if im ok when i miscarrired you were saying that to her and despite EVERYTHING you've done, there's nothing I want more than to have you back. To see your family, to get the number 5 bus to come and see you, It hurts when i see that BUS. You've let me down so badly, and unlike most people. YOU.JUST.DON'T.CARE

I've lost 2 of our babys and you said "no point crying over spilt milk.

I never want to see or talk to you again. Most days I don't want to crawl out of bed because you've made me feel so bad about myself :( like I'm unlovable. I trust no one now. I hate knowing you're with your ex all the time I HATE IT. You took her on holiday with the money you saved for us to go. You've emotionally and mentally abused me you've neglected me and I am SO . HURT. I look fine, no one knows how much you've destroyed me though, least of all... you

I don't know why. I guess I never will

Goodbye

[LostInHisEyez]

"D.B"

I've lost 2 of our babys and you said "no point crying over spilt milk.

Im sorry babe. =(
I'm so glad you reached me on myspace though.
you know I'm always here for you if ever need to talk to me!

... me thinks I write a letter to my ex now...



"Bebby."

It amazes me sometimes how good people like me and BorisTheBlade get hurt.
And we get a respone like "no point in crying over spilt milk." when we lose a baby...
I never wanted to hate a person I loved so much. I'm always doing things to better myself. College.gym.work. And I'm just waiting for one thing for you to better yourself. But you haven't. The only bad habit that I picked up, was smoking again. But that's just something small that I can always quit. Something I can't quit, is you.. I guess.. I have great friends, and an amazingly bright future. Why would you drop that for some bimbo? I laugh, because I know, I KNOW, I can do the same things those girls do for you, but even better. I know I sound conceited, but after two years, I know what can make you sing, and what can make you cry. And I don't use it against you... you've emptied my closet, and threw out my skeletons for the whole world to see. I've lost friends.. but I finally am free. My soul is clean. I still have something to thank you for, even after all the crap you've put me through. Thank you. a$$hole.

[ISneezeFunny]

Sorry to hear about the pain ladies, but trust me, it does get better.

[Guidostern]

Here's a second one...

Dear *****,

I left on Saturday, just as you asked. I get back to this place that we used to call home, and it's awful being here. Everywhere I look, there's another memory that I have to try and drink away or burn down. You tell me that you don't want to be with me anymore, but then send me messages saying how I should be there with you, holding you tight, instead of being here. How mad you are that I am no longer there with you... but yet you continue to tell me that this will never work.

I moved over 500 miles away from anyone I know so you could be happy with your family. I gave you a ring, which is something I said I would never do again. You were elated and eagerly accepted my proposal... just to throw the ring back at me three months later because I'm not making enough money for us to be comfortable without your income, and you can't handle the job I do.

But yet, you continue daily to send me these messages, telling me that you miss me and love me and wish I was with you still... and then tell some friends to help me move on, and others that you're a wreck without me and can't live without me there. You tell me that even if we did get married, you would choose your family over your husband and divorce me if that's what would make your family happy...

You rip my heart right out of my chest, killing my spirit and soul along with it... then you feed me false hope by telling me these small things. I know you hate this, but live with your choice if you are going to make it. Don't treat me like I'm a toy or a yo-yo. It's not fair to me, and it's not fair to you.

It's been a little under 4 days since I last seen you. When telling me good bye, you hugged me and wanted me to hold you tight in my arms. You kissed me and told me that you will always love me, and will never be able to love someone else like you love me again. If this is true, then why is it that you have to do this? I try so hard to put a roof over your head and your left hand wore a ring... I told you my deepest, darkest secrets... you're not just my lover... you're my best friend... you're the one person that I can tell anything to, and NORMALLY not worry about getting judged for it.

I asked for chances over these last few days. I have broken down, wanting to scream your name down the hall... praying that you'll come back to me... but I didn't. I have tried to give you everything you have ever wanted while we have been together. Now I'm trying to give you what you want by leaving, and apparently that's not good enough either.

You need to make up your mind. I refuse to move from one state and back to another, and then again just for you to be happy. Unlike you, my personal happiness is more important than what my family thinks... they don't like you, that's their problem... I don't have to come around. If they accept me, then they have to accept you. It's like having my arm cut off... I can't quite reach and do what I used to be able to. I know this is hard for you too... I can actually take your feelings into consideration... but I know exactly what you are doing... you're already trying to fill the void of me leaving... and baby, no matter how hard you try... you'll never fill that void again... just like I will never be able to fill the void that is in my heart either.

I would have followed you to the end of time, not ever second guessing my choice. I stuck with you during your times of being ill, where we had to live off my salary... it was hard, but we were happy before we moved. You told me that everything you do is in hopes of making our lives better... well, do you believe me now when I say moving was an awful idea?

All it has done is cause pain and suffering. I'm sick of pain and suffering. I'm ready to be happy. I'm happy with myself, and while I'm not complete without you... I will go on. I will be strong, because I believe in myself...

Goodbye *****, maybe I'll see you in another lifetime...

[Guidostern]

Here's a little something I wanted to share... it's something that was pretty special to me, before I got over it...

We woke up without our clothes of virtue
Holding on to each other and the fleeting time
We both knew that an otherwise perfect moment
Was spoiled by shame and sudden lies

But I guess I can take the pain
God knows that I will take the blame
For all the things we had to hide
I know I can take the guilt
But I can't take her off my mind

Well, I made this bed so that's where I'll lie down
Another lonely night in a cold house
I could dream and just confess
So wake me up when things go back

I guess I can take the pain
God knows I will take the blame
For all the things we had to hide
I know I can take the guilt
But I can't take her off my mind

There's no easy way to say it
We should go our separate ways
But I can't keep holding on
I know she'll haunt me just the same
I should have never played the game
But it's time that I let go

I guess I can take the pain
God knows I will take the blame
For all the things we had to hide
I know I can take the guilt
But I can't take her off my mind

[none12345]

To Alice:

It happens every time
You've given me the sign
We start to get it on but then you stop me
You know I've had it up to here
You need to be more clear
Cause you're the one that led me here
So take me...

Cause you said that you would
But then you changed you mind
How could you do this to me??
It's just so unkind
And it's cruel if you say that you'll go all the way
I can't wait for the day
That you don't change your mind...

You've got to understand
Things are getting out of hand
You can't just leave me sitting here unseen to
You know I don't know what to do
Or how long to wait for you
You said you needed time so I won't rush you

I'll never let you down
I'll always be around
When you need someone
To catch you when you fall down
I'm waiting here for you
If you decide you want to
If you want me to stay
Then I'm only a phone call away

[firsttimedumped]

I wanted to send her this one so bad but I didn't



I feel so sad the pain that I have in my heart hurts more than any physical pain I have ever expirenced. It hurts so much because the reason she is no longer by my side is all my fault.

I would give up everythig just to wake up next to her in the mornings again.
I pray over and over again for god to give me the strength and wisdom to either let it go and accept it or teach me the way to be a better man.

She is so sweet and kind and loving. She even blessed me with a wonderful little boy. So why is she not here, because I didn't show her the love and the affection she deserved. I stopped telling her how much I loved her an how much I appreciated her. My hugs and kisses turned into foul words towards my wife.

Instead of telling her thank you I asked her to do more. She had the whole weight of the relationship on her back and I wasn't helping her carry it.

But now it's too late and I lost the only person that ever truly understood me. Will she ever see that I really understand what went wrong with us, I don't think so.

I wish I knew all the right things to say to her so that we can fall in love again and start our family over on a new leaf.

But she doesn't believe I can be the man she is looking for. She lost my trust after many broken promises I made. That's the hardest part trying to gain back the trust that I lost, and knowing again that it was all my fault.

[heartbroke]

Alejandra
Leaving me will be the biggest mistake in your life, and you will regret it for the rest of your days. You told me you couldn't give your all to me, and that a relationship isn't what you want right now. But you held your head up high after using me to pick yourself up, after I treated you so well, you pursue someone else. You move on to this other person so fast with only lust in mind, but I know this isn't the life you want. So for you to suddenly start giving your "all" to someone else and putting more effort into finding him and knowing him than working on the small problems we had to make it work, and saying you couldn't do it for me, hurts me significantly. You should be ashamed of yourself for treating me this way. I am a person with feelings and not some stepping stool for you to feel good about yourself. Shame on you!! How dare you treat me this way, after all I've done for you. I was there for you and helped you through your darkest times and this is the thanks I get. . I am suffering emotionally and physically, while you think this crazy world of not working and being with someone new is happiness. You have lost your f_cking mind and need to fix your life, and stop living in this fantasy world of being young. You are 28 with an 11 year old, start acting like a mother. A new relationship will bring weird and new feelings that will get you excited, but its just a rebound, and they usually never last. I curse the day I first saw you and fell in love. Karma will get the best of you, and you will soon feel the pain and agonizing suffering I do. I have never been ill-willed till the day you destroyed everything that was me by making selfish decisions. You are the coldest iceberg I have ever met. Cold hearted and emotionless. I wish nothing but the same pain,misery and destruction you have brought onto me and my life, and for the rest of your days and nights to be lonely.

[MiSSsy111222]

Alejandra
Leaving me will be the biggest mistake in your life, and you will regret it for the rest of your days. You told me you couldnt give your all to me, and that a relationship isnt what you want right now. But you held your head up high after using me to pick yourself up, after i treated you so well, you pursue someone else. You move on to this other person so fast with only lust in mind, but i know this isnt the life you want. So for you to suddenly start giving your "all" to someone else and putting more effort into finding him and knowing him than working on the small problems we had to make it work, and saying you couldnt do it for me, hurts me significantly. You should be ashamed of yourself for treating me this way. I am a person with feelings and not some stepping stool for you to feel good about yourself. Shame on you!!! how dare you treat me this way, after all ive done for you. I was there for you and helped you through your darkest times and this is the thanks i get. . I am suffering emotionally and physically, while you think this crazy world of not working and being with someone new is happiness. You have lost your f_cking mind and need to fix your life, and stop living in this fantasy world of being young. You are 28 with an 11 year old, start acting like a mother. A new relationship will bring weird and new feelings that will get you excited, but its just a rebound, and they usually never last. I curse the day i first saw you and fell in love. Karma will get the best of you, and you will soon feel the pain and agonizing suffering i do. I have never been ill-willed till the day you destroyed everything that was me by making selfish decisions. You are the coldest iceberg i have ever met. Cold hearted and emotionless. I wish nothing but the same pain,misery and destruction you have brought onto me and my life, and for the rest of your days and nights to be lonely.

Sorry to disturb your venting, Now this is just my opinion, but I think that having these feeling are no good for you. How do you expect to move on when you harbour all these ill feeling towards her. It is normal to feel some hate towards our ex's for hurting us but we need to learn to let it go-FOR OURSELVES. Doing this will help you move on. Life's a B**** but it goes on and we can't always have what we want. And it might be her loss for losing you, but oh well like you said its her loss. Wishing that she has misfoutune will make you feel good for a while, but tell me how long does it last??

I've read some of your advice that you have given me and others on previous threads. Listen to what you say because it is good advice!

[heartbroke]

Iv read some of your advice that you have given me and others on previous threads. listen to what you say because it is good advice!

I know its good advice, but its difficult for me when trying to deal with my own situation. It is easier for me to sit here and listen to someone else's problems and give them advice then it is to make myself believe my own. In short it is easier said to someone else than done for myself.

I have a lot of hatred for her because she lied a lot to get me to let her go easier. I would have thought she had enough respect to tell me the honest truth instead of stringing me along and feeding me bullsh_t lies for a month. And I really thought that because when we were together she was always honest, and all of a sudden she's this completely different person. She gave me every excuse in the book. I want to be alone. I don't want to be in a relationship. I want to focus on me and my son. I want to focus on getting a job and I can't give you the attention you need. I want to sort out my feelings and my life. And I did nothing wrong in this relationship. She made a poor choice to break up with me because she was depressed about losing her job. She said she wanted to be alone and not in a relationship, yet here she is now aggressively pursuing someone 6 years younger than her age, and she criticized me for being 2 years younger than her. Instead of trying to work on the feelings we had, she purposely fought them off and went off to find fresh new ones. Of course these feeling are no good for me, but that's the fact of feelings they are emotions that emerge, not artificially created so to speak. Like we can't say... hmmmm I want to feel happy... or I'm going to make myself angry. I was probably more invested in it than she was, (which is partly my fault, but I feel so hard for her and blinded by the love and beauty she fed me) but she manipulated me into thinking she was the person I wanted to be with. And then to turn around and say "ok im finished", just wasn't fair to me. Its like a friend running beside you and telling you to keep running and training with them, and all of a sudden you realize you're friend gave up a half a mile ago. If I had a switch to turn these feelings off and move on I would have done it the day she said "this isnt working". I would have flipped the switch and walked right out the door. I harbor strong feelings. Its my nature. If I could erase her from my mind and everything from her I would. Because now I feel this outcome really wasn't worth the happy times we had as great as they were. This bad outcome is defintely outweighing all those good times. And its killing me. I would rather have never met her than to go through what I am experiencing right now.

[MiSSsy111222]

I was in the same situation as you was. He fed me all the lines, he said he card, loved me and wanted me, we even talked about marriage. It was even worse because marriage is big in my religion. When he left me he gave me every excuse, he couldn't handle a relationship, he was in trouble and he didn't want to drag me down, he wanted to be alone. And now? The last words I saw from him was him declaring his love for someone else. I know how it feels to have that one person we love hurt you. I couldn't handle the pain either, I have never experienced anything like it in my life. But it is getting better.

People change, maybe she was honest when she was with you, but she is a different person now, and so are you, but unfortunaly you're the one who is suffering whilst she is doing her own thing. Don't give her the satisfaction of dragging you down. Make yourself bigger and better. Overcome her bulls****.

I think your at the stage of anger, lucky for me mine didn't last that long. I can see you like going to the gym, well use your anger in there. These feeling will pass and soon. Chalk it up as an experience, just make sure you learn from it.

[blio2000]

A.

Well, where do I start. From the moment I saw who I knew our future was bright. The way you came into my life was incredible. High school sweethearts and first loves, what else could you ask for. The past 5 years have been the best of my life, and you have helped me become who I am today. I became close with your parents and family. The amazing memories we shared will never be forgotten and you will always have a piece of my heart. After 5 years you have decided that you are in a routine and wanting to see what else is out there, yes this happens because we only know each other. For me, you would have been the world and the only one for me. What hurts me most is that after we broke up, you sat me down and told me how much you loved me, grabbed my hands and we stared into each others eyes. Hearts pounding and the feeling of soul mates where we don't have to say a thing to understand each other. You began to cry and I told you that everything would be okay. We then said our parting lines and held each other one more time. What I don't understand is how you met someone so fast and invited him into your whole life. Yes I called you and told you I was upset and I might have said some things I should'nt have, but the way you handled it was unacceptable, especially since this was on valentines day. The way you made me out to be in order to make the new person look good was uncalled for. I would not wish this pain upon anyone. I did everything for you and I guess this was too much. Two months later I think about you every day. I wish that one day we will find each other again. Yes I am angry, yes I am hurt, but as long as you are happy, I will accept the outcome. You mean the world to me and I will always love you. I know in my heart you know we are to be together, yet feel as though you need to be sure for yourself. I will not wait around because of the pain, but I will be open to life and everything it has to offer. Even after everything and how everyone tries to tell me that there is something better out there for me, I love you forever and a day. Good things happen to good people. So long

[heartbroke]

Alejandra, my life feels empty without you. I wish you'd realise that I was the best for you. I miss you a lot and wish you would wake up from this dream you live in, you think is happiness.

[none12345]

Hey Alice, wutcha doing? Do you even remember who I am and everything we've been through. The times we fought hard for our relationship. Even when we thought it was over things always gotten better. I never knew you were the type that would quit. What happened? Does this new guy really mean that much to you? He just popped out of no where and destroyed our relationship.

Well its been a while now, I'm kind of used to you not being around anymore yet I still love you and miss you. I also know I deserve to be treated better than this. The mean things you 've told me do you really mean it? Is this guy really better than me? Are you really too good for me? Why do you always listen to your friends? Just because they told you they would be disappointed in you if you picked me?

I want you back, and I want things to change but I know it can't so what now? You tell me? Should I really move on with my life without you in it? I want you in it. We were each other's first everything and I want us to be each other's last everything. What about all the promises we made to each other. I guess it never really meant anything to you.

If you can hear me out there, I love you and I want you to be happy even if its not with me but I won't want to live my life without you. If only if we could have our happy ending. Ill be waiting for you to contact me if you love me which I know you do. I can still feel you do because I know we had much more than this. I just hope things get better for us soon no matter what life takes us.

[Dare81]

Hey B----,

How are you doing.SO what happened, you could not call me on birthday in January? Even though I called you on yours.How long would it have taken to pick you the phone and say hi and happy birtday. After 8 year.Come on really.I heard you called our ex roommate.I know you liked him and told me I needed to be more like me.Well you know what, I am me ,I don't want to be like him.
Tell me this the last time we broke up why did you keep me as a back up.Did I really deserve it? I was there for you when you were scared at 4 in the morning and you would call me I would talk to you for hours until you would go back to sleep.I would get up in the middle of the night to get you your medicine when you were sick.I did all I could Be--- and you know what.I am moving on.That's it .I hope some body does to you what you did to me.

[heartbroke]

Thanks for doing me a favor by breaking up with me, I'm having the time of my life. Oh and my last words to you?. Eat sh_t! Who is laughing now!?