[Ks secretos]

:confused:So my X and I ended the our relationship of 3 years of friend ship 3 mo.s ago, and we tlked on the phone haven't since... until the other night... we were on the phone from 1-4 (roughly 3:30 min.s) tlkn about life and how much we missed ea other and how we broke up because a miss understanding and how he misses (and missed) me. I tried so many times to end the LONG conversation but he kept on talking... out of our whole almost 4 year ordeal he told me he loved my by the 2nd yr and it was "real"... I never said the L word until AFTER we broke up and I think he may try to hold me by a string because of that. It sucks because once I fall for someone I truly care for I can't separate the 2 (besides the small fact that I rarely ever fall in love)... yesturday (the day after we tlked) I told him that I wanted to tlk to him again and he actually gave me a time and date... next Friday at 10pm LOL (before it was "ok answer your phone in 2 mins"... not anymore I guess) so I said never mind because I think he thinks a lot of himself because I love him even though we are broken up... it sux so bad for me because I don't want to seem desprate for his affection and love, even though I think I may be... idk . Its like after I told him I loved him (the week before we tlked last) I felt naked and reliv'd at the same time, because I NEVER SAY that. I wish I could read his mind some times to see if I'm in there but I don't know. He has moved along to other relationships (his last one was 1 mo after we broke up, with his boyfriend and he's heart broke because she left him for his friend LOL) and I kind of have also, but I'm doing it to feel HIS empty void, I even tell the guy I'm talking to (right now) and he doesn't mind, that is sad in my eyes, because my current guy loves me and is so awesome (also a previous good friend:o ) .

Breaking up with him was the worst time (in a relationship) that I have EVER had. We spoke every night for 2-5 hours at a time weather we saw each other or not. I feel so pathetic because I don't want to want or need him because I have so many other guys that gladly fill his empty spot. I wish we never would have spoke because I was almost over him. He was my ideal mate (perfect in my high standard eyes because I excepted his faults and everything) and I was (once) his

He was discussing our future, planning our engagement one day and literally the next month we were brokeup this was my first intense relationship that is now nothing in my eyes , I don't know were we stand... now that I'm 3in tall nude little person, I'm looking for help :(

[Ks secretos]

Maybe it was never nothing