[cutie08]

Everyday I'm stressed I do what I think is right but it never is somewhere in the wrong is where I awlways tend to be I love him I love him so much and I always think that what I'm doing is helping but somehow I always hurt I feel worthless in this relationship at times I feel like I'm holding him back I love him so much and I need him I really do but I don't know what I should do csause I don't want to be the one holding him back from everything. I would just feel horrible about that if I did. I don't know what is right and what is wrong anymore everything I do seems to backfire on me every time that I do something that I think might be helping I don't know how else to be a good girlfriend I don't know how else or whatelse to do. I'm messed up I'm messed up so much I'm addicted to my sleeping pills cause when I'm on them nothing matters and I'm fine I'm sleeping and in a good state of mind but when I'm not I'm up worrying and stressing about everything I can't eat and I can't sleep now without these pills. I'm going crazy I am 16 and things should not be this way but they are. I don't know I'm scared I don't know what's for the best anymore I mean clearly I love him with all of my heart and would do anything for him anything that he ever asked for. But I'm scared I'm so scared. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I don't want to loose that when everything else is falling apart like my family and my friends I don't want me and him to fall apart too. I'm scared I'm sitting here bawling as I write this I can hardly see the screen please someone help me please someone get me some help I need it more than anything right now please

[George_1950]

Can you get a tall glass of water and drink it slowly? Have you tried to write on a paper all the things you like about him; and all the things that may not be so good? Sometimes, one must be patient with another person; he may need some time for sorting things out, and you may need this time to see where you are, and where you need to be headed. Is your Mom able to help you with this?

[cant breathe]

You seem to be focusing all your energy on him and neglecting friends, family and most of all your own feelings. From what you are saying do you feel the relationship is one sided what I mean is do you think you feel more for him than he does for you? Has he given you any reason to believe that the relationship is unsteady?
You need to relax and be yourself, you can't make someone love you or be with you if they don't want to be and by acting this way you may just dive him further away.
Try to relax and be yourself around him and start to look after you. You really need to speak to someone regarding your increasing dependency on the sleeping pills. Can you talk to family, friends or someone about it?

[liz28]

Your 16 and your about to enter adulthood and you starting wrong by letting your life surround around your boyfriend. Its best to be yourself when you with someone instead of being someone you cant. Don't ever love someone more then yourself because then you neglect yourself and sometimes your needs don't get fulfill. Why are you taking sleeping pills? What things do your boyfriend do for you to show you how much he care or what does he do to prove he care? How exactly do you help him and what's his age?

[starlite1]

Hi Cutie,

What exaclty happened with him?