I need help I'm going to go crazy
Everyday I'm stressed I do what I think is right but it never is somewhere in the wrong is where I awlways tend to be I love him I love him so much and I always think that what I'm doing is helping but somehow I always hurt I feel worthless in this relationship at times I feel like I'm holding him back I love him so much and I need him I really do but I don't know what I should do csause I don't want to be the one holding him back from everything. I would just feel horrible about that if I did. I don't know what is right and what is wrong anymore everything I do seems to backfire on me every time that I do something that I think might be helping I don't know how else to be a good girlfriend I don't know how else or whatelse to do. I'm messed up I'm messed up so much I'm addicted to my sleeping pills cause when I'm on them nothing matters and I'm fine I'm sleeping and in a good state of mind but when I'm not I'm up worrying and stressing about everything I can't eat and I can't sleep now without these pills. I'm going crazy I am 16 and things should not be this way but they are. I don't know I'm scared I don't know what's for the best anymore I mean clearly I love him with all of my heart and would do anything for him anything that he ever asked for. But I'm scared I'm so scared. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I don't want to loose that when everything else is falling apart like my family and my friends I don't want me and him to fall apart too. I'm scared I'm sitting here bawling as I write this I can hardly see the screen please someone help me please someone get me some help I need it more than anything right now please