[Bellamomma12]

I just don't know what to do j need advice. I have been a relationship with another woman for about 8 years. Approximately 2 years ago I was raped by a man, and was to scared to report it. 7 and 1/2 months later I find out that I am having a baby. Still scared and convinced that everyone will not believe I was raped I told no one and people came to the conclusion that I must have just cheated with her cousin ( who was supposed to be our sperm doner) it came out almost when my son was 1. I broke down after a small tiff with my girlfriend that I was raped and I prayed that it was not his that her cousin was the father due toa drunken on nighter that I never remembered ( since we had a few crazy drinking nights that summer) but as he got older his looks and skin tone were the dead give away. I was soooo scared she said we did not need to tell anyone if I did not feel comfortable we knew the truth and when I was comfortable we could if I desired so. Since that conversation it has came out he Denies any and all contact with me including anything sexually related. I myself know what happened but I am not sure Ivan handle the long lengthily process and do not know what my outcome will be. I also do not think I could handle being in the same room with him for court purposes. I just do not know what my rights and incentives are. My son is my only worry and I will never ever be OK with him being near my son or myself. I am just confuse and scared and need some sort of legal help