[sarahosweat]

I am an alcoholic. 22years old, 5'2, 105lbs. Once I start drinking; I can't stop. I black out & go into some type of transe. I get violent with myself & my loved ones trying to help. I cry histarically not knowing where I'm at or who I'm with. I scream for help like someone is trying to kill me when all their trying to do is help. Then I scream for help for someone to pull me out of this transe. I have uncontrollable leg & body movement. Summer saults; the whole nine yards. I foam from my mouth, vomit like crazy, I bang my head to h*** as if I were trying to beat this craziness out of it. Feeling possessed. I latch on to anyone trying to help me & instantly turn on them as if they were going to hurt me.These transes can last up to 6 hours. I was hospitalized back in January to march 4 times for these transes & a near death overdose that left me on life support for 2wks. I was just released from jail for battery on an officer who was trying to help while going through this back in January. I failed probation since I couldn't stop drinking. I went out last night & tried to hang & it was a nightmare all over again. Was once again hospitalized. These transes usually happen after I'm tooken away from the life of the party. I can drink continuesly at home & this never happens. What is going on in my brain while all this is going down.

[odinn7]

Sounds like you need help. We're not going to be able to help you here... you need real professional, face to face help. I would say that until you are able to do this, perhaps you shouldn't be going out since you can't handle it.

[Fr_Chuck]

You have to stop going to parties with drinking, stop buying things to drink at home, and stop drinking.

Only you can control that.

[J_9]

It's called alcoholism and you need to get some help.