[hello1356]

Hello,
Do you think I have a eating disorder and if yes what should I do about it?
I'm a 16 year old girl and weight 93lbs and I'm 5 ft 5. This all started years ago when I was 11 I started not eating my lunch at school then when I went to high school I started to eat normally again and put on a lot of weight by the time I was 13 I was really unhappy with my weight and started skipping lunch again I lost some weight by doing this for two years and by the time I was 15 I was underweight and my friends would tell me I'm too thin and question and force me to eat. I hated it. Once I was at the doctors and she was asking me food related questions and questions on my weight I lied as I was scared and nothing else happernd with it.Now I'm counting the calories in everything I eat and I exercise a lot! Every time I eat I feel so guilty and hate myself for it, most of the time I'm thinking about food and what I've eaten and what I must not eat and that I must be think. I feel as if my life would be eaiser if I was thin. I told myself once I had a flat stomach I would stop this and eat healthy but once I was happy with my stomach I noticed how fat my legs are and now can't stop. My biggest fear is gaining weight! I want to be able to eat what I like with out worrying like my friends but I can. I've never told any one about this they wouldn't understand and if I do have and eating disorder I want help from my doctor but don't want to get fat or go in hospital and I don't want anyone to know I don't want her to send me to counclling what would she do if I told her this and how do I even say this to her help I'm scared what would you do? How can I tell my doctor? Do I have an eating disorder? And what one? Help!

[Emzz077]

Hello. Yes it sounds like you have anerixia. This is a horrible illness and I'm sorry your going thur it. I am just almost 100% recovered from anerixia. I was always a skinny child. But around purberty I started to gain weight. I bloomed to 14.7 stones. Im 5.9 and I was merrisble. I decided to go on a diet and a yr later I was under eight stone. I lost a lot of my hair. My periods stop. I was malnurishes dehydrated. My teeth were weak and breaking. I had fluid in my leg which caused me to limp I needed to get better. It is very scary to tell sumone about this buh you have to. Do not ruin your life trust me be strong tell doc they wl guide you and help you. My worst fear was gaining weight and it waa very hard. But I decided life was to short and I started to eat and a bit too much. Make sure you eat healthy and well and do not binge because I did anf I'm now twelve.stone buh I look sooo much better. Do it healthy and believe me... It wony matter how narrow your coffin is when your dead. Do this.and make yourself proudd. Best whishes