[anonnymous]

Hi
Me and my boyfriend had a long distance relationship for past 8 years starting from the age of 16 and still going on strongly. We were too sincere. He knew everything about me and I knew everything about him. He accepted me wholeheartedly. But 7th year into the relationship he told me that his batchmate girl loves him a lot. Boom!! That's were everything started. I asked hime whether he loves her? But he told no. OK fine. Just stop all contacts with her. He told it will take time to make her understand that he doesn't love her because he was not sure how she will react once she comes to know about it. We had a break up following this. During this period I got a best friend. We used to talk to each other. But I never gave my best friend the place that I have given to my boyfriend. Later me and my boyfriend patched up. But the reason for the break up was burning in me. Sometimes I tried to avoid his phone calls. I know I was total psycho. I told him about my new best friend. But I swear I only had sexual relationship only with my boyfriend ever. He tried to make me understand to keep a distance from my best friend because my boy friend believed sooner or later my best friend will propose me. But I didn't cared about that. Inorder to make me understand his pain he became close with a girl in his area. When I heard about it I couldn't control myself. I just blasted off. My boyfriend tried to make me realise that he was trying to make me understand how it will feel for him also when I did so to him. There happened our second breakup. Later again we got patched up. And life was going smooth. When talks about wedding came up all these pasts came into my mind and I started to doubt him. I told him I am not ready for wedding right now. He tried to ask me what happened. But I was not ready to tell it and I called off the wedding and relationship. That was the third time. So during this time I know I can't forget him. But I was trying to forget him by getting into a relation with my coleague. But I couldn't take him away. Moreover my mind was fillng up with regret. And when it got uncontrollable I used to telephone my boyfriend and just cry. He was available for me at any time. Later I understood the fact that I can't live without my boyfriend. We patched up. But that past relationships wth my colleagues was filling my heart with regret. Atlast I opened up to my boyfriend. I knew it hurted him deeply and I knew he will leave me. But he told me "past is past. i knew my sweetheart very well. i will not ask anything about ur past ever again. i m there with u always. and i still love you. but under one condition. u must stop all contacts with ur colleague". I agreed. After that our life is going smooth. But I still have that bit of regret in my heart. My guy is also trying his level best to bring back our lives to normal. But sometimes he appears to be moody. I know he got hurt deeply. And I don't want to hurt him anymore. What should I do? Should I go away from him so that he can lead a better life with a better girl? I am even ready for that because that was the amount of regret I had. But he is not ready to leave me.

[Itsk]

Y would u consider going away from him if you can't leave without him?