[Mands]

Basically I don't really know where I stand with my boyfriend of just over a year and 2 months which I am so in Love with and don't know what to do with myself,to put it to the point he resigned in the beginning of the year for a better oppurtunity,which didn't work out,he is still looking for work,he was staying with me whom I stay on my parents property in a flatlet.He has 2 Boys who are 17&16 and a EX who won't let go,uses the kids to get to him bla bla,they weren't married,separated for 6 years.If ever things didn't work out with him he would always go back and move out so it used to seem from what I heard... I had basically never dealt with my abusive relationship two years ago and now I am feeling very insecure and not loved and landed up in psychaitric hospital for 10 days,as I was treated for depression and dual addiction,I used to take azors,demetrin anything to calm down with my ex.While I was in hospital he went to vist his kids and stayed there,HE SLEPT ON THE COUCH swore to me,nothing happened,the ex was upstairs him downstairs?? I leave it until I get out of hospital I need to relax and not stress,two days out and I ask him so have you told her the truth about you and I,his answer was I wouldn't undrstand the situtation,he is there for the kids and not interested in her at all.next day the ex messages me saying they having been sleeping together for two weeks and he is speaking so much nonsense about me,I know she does talk hog wash at times but I just have this horrible feeling in my tummy something is not right,he can't sms call nothing after 4?she will won't let him stay there,he is only staying there until he gets a job,his attitude towards me has changed completely in an ugly way,do you know after I have just written this I think which I HOPE I am wrong because I really and truly think he is my Man with tears in my eyes... the truth! What do you think?