[cieraloller]

My fiancŽ was murdered and about 30mins before it happened I was on the phone with him and we had a wonderful conversation just about us and when we were setting our wedding date and everything. Now I just don't know what to do all I do is cry because he was my everything more than just my fiancŽ. Now I feel like what now should I go see a physic or something I just feel like I'm missing something.

[joypulv]

I suggest a bereavement group. A clinic or psych dept of a hospital might have referrals, or sometimes there's a section in local newspapers for groups and other non profits. If you don't find one, start one, and put the notice in the paper. There are others grieving as you are, or any kind of loss of a loved one. Only time and talking can get you over the worst of it. It never really goes away but becomes a part of you that you use to understand others.

And of course make friends drag you around to whatever they do, even if you are no fun right now, and tell them to next expect anything of you but a sort of limp rag doll, and not to try to cheer you up either - just keep you busy. Keeping busy is what 99% of it is all about. The other hour a week is for talking about it.