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I have broke up with my boyfriend for 20days.I feel very sad and getting crazy.I want to know why our relationship goes like this and if he was cheating me?Please someone tell me the truth... the story is like this:I have been with my boyfriend for 5years.We come from different country which very far from each other.my parents against us because he has no money to give me a good future.they ask him to buy a house.he fight for that goal for 4years,now he seems to give up.we were so happy the first 2years,but then I figure out he had cheated on me in our first year(slept with whore,look for massage girl online... etc)he explained he did that because he was boring when he was not with me.We fight a lot a lot.I become very sensitive and jealous and doubt about him always,make him feel he was in jail.After one year fighting.I almost forgive him,but I feel he has changed.he do things because I ask,for not make me upset,not really from his bottom of heart.We had go his country last year,but we fight a lot,his family don't like me.We saperate for six months.I beg him come back,now he has been back in my country for 5months already but in different city.he said he come back for me.he wants to buy a house and marry me in one year.I feel happy because after 5years he finally make a plan for marriage.But I can feel he changed after he come back to me this 5months.He stop to hold me when we were in street.He touch me less,he spent less money,he changes very quickly,now he even told me he doesn't want to marry me in one year,he want to watch me more time because I only want his money(my parents ask him buy a house in my country shows he is serous and sincere in the beginning of our relationship),he said he will leave my country if he lose his job.. anyway,he don't love me anymore.what can I do? I try to remember again and again about our story.he used to follow me chase me listen to me tolerate me,he loved me,but now he don't,I feel so terrible.all is my fault?because I jealous too much?fight too much?I don't know what to do,I really want to make him happy,but I don't know what to do can make him happy.go with him to live in his country?I'm very confused,one side is my parents,one side is him,I love him,I want to be with him all my life,but I don't know how,if my parents allow,I can say I would like to go with him to anywhere,I feel myself belong to him,but now he doesn't want me,I admit I'm a bad girl,I can not stand if one day don't see him,I love him too much.he works in another city,I feel so bad,I want to go with him,but for sure my parents can cut the relationship with me.. my god,what can I do...