[sparkle2]

I was on and off with my ex boyfriend six years, he was my first boyfriend, my first proper friend, my first love my first everything. I took him for granted I kept finishing with him because I was young and stupid, he always told me whatever happens he will never love anybody as much as he loves me, I broke his heart a year and a half ago because I was selfish. He is now with a girl since we finished and I always wonder does he still love me? Does he think of me? Does he love her more than he ever loved me? Its hard because he lives on the same road as me and so does she, I see her car outside his or his outside hers and I hate her for it, it was my own fault, but I always have dreams about us getting back together and I wish we did... we went threw so much with each other, and his girlfriend now doesn't care what she has she has cheated on him but I don't know what to do we haven't spoke since we finished because he hates me he thinks I got some guy to beat him up bad, and I didn't... I didn't even know the guy who did it I knew of him... I tried ringing my ex after a few drinks one not to tell him I didn't get that guy to do anything I don't even know why he thinkd that, he asked me was I done and hung up the fone... I was sick in hospital for 3 weeks they thoght I had cancer.. it runs in my family but my friend text him saying I was sick and I missed him but I didn't know she text him and he told her he has moved on from the past but I know him he is stubborn and he doesn't give in to anybody wel he used to give in to me... I still love him with all my heart... and I cannot stop thinking about him... I know I should leave him go but I cant... what can I do??

[JudyKayTee]

You don't have a choice but to let go. He has made it very clear that he has moved on and is finished with your relationship.

I know that's hard news to get but he has told you in person and over the phone and told your friend (when you were sick and in the hospital) that he is finished.

All you can go is walk away, keep busy, not contact him, go on with your life - and I know that's hard.

[amicon]

He has moved on,and so must you-you can't wait around in limbo for him to change his mind.

Work actively on creating a new life for yourself;take up new hobbies,make new friends and 'fake it till you make it'.

[sparkle2]

Thank you, you it is really hard to accept but he's always in the back of my mind.It sucks.

[sparkle2]

Thanks, I like the "fake it till you make it" :)

[amicon]

It works!! :-)