[emsmaker]

I'm so confused and lonely. Problem is I don't want to talk to my family, they would either be uncomfortable about anything I say or stick their nose in where all I want is someone to talk to. My problem is my relationship. I have anger issues and am resolving it with meditation, but I only just started and the anger slips out sometimes. My partners temper is different, he just shuts down and won't talk to me or even tell me what triggered it. Like last night I went to the shops to get ingredients for our dinner and come home to only have him say that something different I got because they didn't have the usual wouldn't do, then he says 'don't worry about it then'. So I go to a different shop and get the proper ingredient, come home, toss it on the bed where he is saying 'here's your noodles' then he picks it up and throws it at the wall saying 'don't want it if your going to be cranky'. What the hell happened in the time it took me to go to the shops the first time to put him in a poopy mood. His frekkin mood swings give me whip lash. Please I just need someone to talk to, I don't want to cry any more

[talaniman]

How long have you been together?

[emsmaker]

Thank you talaniman, but how do you not make someone your priority when there's no one else except our daughter. We do both, we conquer things together and apart. We are both 'hermits' so to speak and we do like it that way. I know it has its draw backs but it suits us both very well. Miss two does get out with playgroups we won't begrudge her that just because we're hermits. And since his hissy fit I have made more of an effort to get intouch with friends and have play dates with them and their kids

[Cat1864]

I am glad you are getting help medically for your anger issues. However, I think you also need to look into therapy for them too. Medications can only do so much. Understanding where the anger comes from and non-medication ways of dealing with it will help you teach your daughter how to handle her anger as she grows. Your husband may need to get help too.

Marriage counseling might be a way to help you both learn to communicate with each other through positive means instead of feeding off each other's negative moments to turn a small issue into a huge one.

[emsmaker]

About 5 and 1/2 years

[Cat1864]

emsmaker : thank you for your reply. I'm thinking about therapy too but I can't afford it. I try really hard not to show most of my anger in front of my daughter

If you are taking medications prescribed by a doctor, could you ask your doctor about low/no cost counseling in your area?

[J_9]

Where do you see that she is taking medication Cat? I read it as "meditation."

[Kitkat22]

Depression is a horrible thing. It makes you worthless, hopeless and you feel as if you want to crawl in a hole and never come out.

There are days you can barely get out of bed. The anger is part of it. You get angry if someone says something you don't like or if everything isn't in it's place.

I know where you are and I am saying this to you.. seek help. It won't get better if you don't.
There's nothing more hurtful in the world then feeling worthless and unnecessary.

My family saw the change in me after I lost my Dad and I got the help I needed. Talk to your doctor. My husband stood behind me every step of the way.

[Cat1864]

Where do you see that she is taking medication Cat? I read it as "meditation."

Oops, I misread. Thank you for the correction.