[brewer44]

OK so I will try and keep this short. I recently went through a really rough breakup. The brreakup has made me realize how cruel some people can be. I have dated a fair amount of women for being 26 and have never really struggled with a breakup before. I have also never had someone so dilbertly hurt me and use my kind loving persoanlty to take full advantage and use me purly for their personal gain. In 2002 I was put on paxil for a short time but it didn't really do anything. I haven't felt happy in almost 2 years now(including before and after my ex). I have tried talking to my faimly but its just like they don't underestand anything I am saying. My friends try to help but they have their own lives to worry about.

I don't know what to do. I do know that I feel like I don't have anything I care about anymore. I fell like selling my house and moving at least a 1000 miles from where I am now to just start over and be closer to my brother. I am tired of feeling like I have to fake I am happy. I have a job in sales where I feel all day I am just faking a smile and being bubbly. I have to go to work in a 20 min and I sitting here crying, A friend told me I should consider getting a dog because she sees me being upset because of a lack of loyalty in my life. I know I am a good person with a huge heart but I feel like I;m not living life to the fullest anymore.

If anyone has any advice for me I would really appreciate it. I really like the idea of getting a dog and not moving. I don't really want to start over in a new city but something needs to change.

[lighterrr]

Sorry you feel this way last time I moved away from my problems I found that they just followed me to the new city and they seemed worse cause I was away from my family and friends