[LittleSkittle]

In school I got sat next to this guy in one of my classes,normally I'm known as a greebo freak.and normally people don't like me.he seemed one of the popular sort,but he was real nice.ever since we have been good friends,until I started to have strong feelings for him... now I've just got annoying because I was always after his attention.then I found out he had feeling for some other girl.which really broke my heart.he even let me talk to her online,I was okay for a while but I lost it,I told 3 friends about him and this girl. (now I really wish I hadnt) I said I was sorry and he was all like.. he forgave me and everything.not long after I ended up hitting him in the face because he kept getting in my face and stuff,we've always been play fighting and stuff but this time I just lost it big time.so again he didn't talk to me again.then he forgave me again.and we were fine for ages.all of a sudden he turns around and says he doesn't want to talk to me anymore.so I wanted to know why,so I kept asking (like I'm sure most people would do)And he told me he hasnst liked me for awhile now.which ,means he didn't really forgive me... I thought I was doing so well too.I know I've had really bad temper and attitude problems in the past but.. now I just lost my friend and the one person I really care about.im lucky if I get a hi.and when the girl he likess talks to me about it ,it feels like I'm some sort of child.I just don't seem to understand what's actually going on.they say I feel sorry for myself.all I wanted was him. I just want us to be laughing again.but he doesn't even look at me.. and his best friend calls me a "dirty B*tch" or "dirty greebo" when he see's me... I have thought about doing stupid stuff.but I have friends who need me right now.so I won't go that extreame.he told me he wanted me to leave him alone.and he'll decide if he wants to talk to me... when he wants to talk to me. Could be 2 months.. could be next year.could be never.I did apologize like.. a thousand times.but its not enough.im staying away from him like he asked.but its killing me.I can't seem to have fun anymore.

[Rockstar714]

You need to let him go.

Its always difficult when a girl has feelings for a guy she's friends with and he doesn't feel that same way. Once you profess those feelings, all friendship seems to go out the window. And by not being able to control your temper and emotions it hurt the friendship even more. So he's now confused because you said you liked him, then you hit him because you were angry.

Honestly, I probably would've done the same thing because it's a scary thing to have a friend that can't control their behaviour. I think you need to focus on your other friendships and work on getting your emotions under control. Maybe after that happens and he sees that you're not going to freak out on him he'll come back around.

[LittleSkittle]

Thanks~ think that's the best piece of advise I've had all week. I'm just worried about if he doesn't ever talk to me again. He's such a nice guy. And I don't want him to remebr me as the crazy girl.

[Rockstar714]

Its high school, you'll get over it even if he does.

I didn't have many friends when I was in high school, and I had a really bad temper and I was emotional wreck, and I know it seems like a big issue to you now, but guess what? I never see anyone I went to high school with. Let alone talk to them or hang out with them. You'll make more friends, people (especially guys) will come and go in your life and you just have to learn to let go. Ask yourself when you get upset about something if its going to effect your life in 5 min, or 5 years. Letting things roll off you is one of the best things I ever learned.

[LittleSkittle]

You have a point. Thanks. I still don't know what ima do about my temper though. :D

[Rockstar714]

I don't know how old you are, but like I said, I had a HORRIBLE temper. Ever since the time I was 3 or 4 up until about 21 or so. I was the kid in the grocery store throwing a fit, throwing themselves on the ground. In class I would bury my head in my arms on the table and just cry because I got made fun of, I'd yell at my classmates, push books off my desk, rip things up... you get the idea. And if I wasn't at school and I got mad at my friends, I'd start throwing things at them... or throw things at the wall if I was alone and mad... bad temper. Anyway, it took a lot of self control, but my temper was making it so I was missing out on things. My friends didn't want to talk to me about anything, my parents didn't either because they all knew about my temper and were afraid about how I was going to react. I learned that when I get upset I take a step back and take a few deep breaths and think about how I'm going to react instead of reacting with rage or at the spur of the moment. A lot of things are trivial. You just have to teach yourself to take a deep breath, count to ten or do something before you react.

[LittleSkittle]

Yeah... I do the burying my head in arms thing on the desk too.or I sit on one side of the classroom on my own.listening to music.the once I stormed out of the classroom swearing.I often hit the boys,because they make fun of me. I'm a bit obbsessed about my weight so they deliberately say I'm fat,and they have a thing about my nose... im not sure what though... they also call me miracle grow because I'm small.it was funny at first but they carried on so when ever they sing the theme tune for it I lash out at them.then they start going on about how I can't hurt them because I can only reach as far as their ankles.and when I do be nice and I'm calm they complain I'm boring and then they try and wind me up. And that guy who calls me a dirty b*tch... I have no idea what his problem is with me.he made me cry the once when he said that no one liked me.I wasn't even talking to him.I was sat with another friend who was his friend too. But when I did cry he didn't even care. So since then I've started to believe no one actually likes me.thats when I asked that guy I like.and he said it wasn't true,. said my mom liked me... thats when I found out he didn't want to talk to me anymore.I guess that I haven't been hitting people recently.I prefer to sit and daydream.

[Rockstar714]

They make fun of you because they know it gets a rise out of you. Ignore them and they'll go away. Just focus on other things, getting good grades, find a hobby, volunteer, make new friends.

By my senior year I was friends with all the people that had made fun of me because I learned to ignore them. I've struggled with my weight since I was little and was always made fun of, but as soon as I stopped letting them get to me they stopped making fun of me.

[LittleSkittle]

Okay,thanks again.you've been a big help to me.

[Rockstar714]

You're welcome!

[LittleSkittle]

I know I am :p