[qqatsii]

I'm 42, single, no job and living with my parents again. MY father's side has a history of mental illness. I've been at times fairly successful, living on my own for most of my adult life, and working different jobs. I now write and am looking at starting my own business. I have owned a bread route to some success. I had to sell it because I was crying, fearing going to work everyday. I hated it. Now I recently met a wonderful woman who I dated for 2 months, but she needed time away. She said it was about her but also said she was concerned with my current living and no job situation. I want to have a job that makes me somewhat happy, fearing if it doesn't I'll quit because it is so hard to work something I hate.
I have a lot of ideas about businesses but I can't seem to focus on one thing. It's driving me nuts. I start on one project then move onto another. I can't focus and I've taken antidepressants in the past but they don't work for me.
I'm nearing a deep depression, nothing seems to make me happy. I miss this gal, my folks do not want me to be here. I know it's a lot of info, none too detailed but I just am looking for some solution to be happy again.

[simoneaugie]

You are suffering from depression, that's for sure. If antidepressants do not work for you, find out all about the new research on Bi-Polar disorder.

What I have found is that it is not just sunlight that keeps me happy, it is darkness too. We live in a world of increasing "blue light" from televisions and computer screens. Some of us are very sensitive to this artificial light.

[starfirefly]

Try taking your mind off things like joining a yoga or art class or something like that, it may help

[Fr_Chuck]

First you are never going to be happy putting your happines requrement upon another person you have to learn to be happy on your own. You may need medication and I would seek professional help.

Love the bread route, I have owned a couple, did not like working them, but loved owning them and letting other people do the work.

[SkyGem]

I'm nearing a deep depression, nothing seems to make me happy. I miss this gal, my folks do not want me to be here. I know its a lot of info, none too detailed but I just am looking for some solution to be happy again.

Dear friend, please know that no one is alone except those who choose to be alone. There is someone for everyone! With concerns such as yours and your subject line "depressed & lost again" and the fact that you mention that you are nearing deep depression, you may wish to check out the following website for some helpful information. May God Bless You and restore your happiness and then turn it into complete JOY!

Depression Help Line