[Cawzntrouble]

Is this all there is to life? I'm taking Celexa, Wellbutrin, Adarax, and Trazadone for Borderline Personality Disorder. I've been taking the meds with therapy now for 2 months. Before that I use to drink with my friends or anywhere that I would go for enjoyment. Now I can't drink because of the meds and I just can't have a good time do the things I enjoy anymore. I've tried all of my usual entertainments sober and they all suck now! I don't have fun anymore and I'm miserable. Everything fun either revolves around alcohol or food and I can't do either. BBQ's, picnics, the beach, fishing, playing pool, roller coasters, parties, bowling, flea market, ALL OF IT isn't fun anymore! I've been to AA before and I didn't benefit from it plus it's boring. Even though the meds have had a huge positive impact, the trade off is that I just don't enjoy life anymore. Acting crazy and manic is what I loved doing and alcohol helped it however I gave it up to be mentally sane. So should I be sane, sober and stable yet miserable with the quality of my life or go back to having fun while being crazy and mentally unstable. I don't know which one is worse! Please help!

[Alty]

Maybe it's time to seek treatment for alcoholism? Talk to your doctor or your therapist. Also, 2 months isn't that long sometimes it takes some time for the meds to start working. Don't give up.

[Choux]

You have to understand where you are now... you have emotional problems and you need to grow-up... those are two different things, but entangled somewhat!

There are a lot of great fun things in life to do for people willing to let go of their negative behaviors such as drinking, doping so forth, and willing to add positive behaviors.

Mental illness is not to blame for every person's character shortcomings!

I would advise to take you medicine and let someone help you grow up. That will make for as happy a life as you can have. :)

Good Luck,

[snapdragon]

OK, so people are going to hate me! but, what makes you think that the way you are without meds is crazy? Is it because you feel unstable or is it because society says you might be? I think that if there is a possibility of hurting yourself or someone else staying on meds might be the option. But if fitting in and pleasing mainstream is what's on your mind I say, be happy, go out and enjoy life. Find friends that support you for what you are, people that are going to be there for you if you are feeling down and need to talk at 4 in the morning. I don't believe in crazy. I think people need a little help sometimes, but I'm a bit of a hippie, so I think there are people to lean on and nature to help treat ailments. Everybody gets offended, don't let the looks of peoples disapproval make you feel bad, find someone who doesn't get offended easily and lean on them. Coming from someone who gets weird looks from people on the street when my boyfriend screams for no reason, makes people feel uncomfortable and comes home to me and talks about string theories and quantum physics. I say just do what's going to make you happy without the possibility of hurting yourself or people around you.

Sorry for the book, if you need to talk, let me know, and I hope this helped a little.
snapdragon