[princessgoofygo]

I am also very selfish and I'm on my way to losing my 6month old daughter and my fiancé. I have other mental issues and without medication I'm a nut. My fiancé is getting sick of my bull and says that he's been putting up with it for 2 years now and he said if I don't get help he will leave but I have not been away from my daughter for mare that 6 hours. I need to go into a "nuthut" but I am scared but if I don't get help I will lose the 2 people in this world that mean more that anything and everything to me. My fiancé had back surgery 1 month before our daughter was born and now needs another one and I am a selfish and lazy bastard that wants everything handed to me and not work for anything and it is hurting him to do anything but I'm sick of doing everything but then again I am a stay at home mom and should be the one cleaning and doing chores anyway. I cry over the stupidest stuff to get my way and it doesn't work it just makes it worse on me. How can I stop being so selfish and lazy and be able to handle the truth when told it. I love my fiancé and my daughter so very much can someone help me, please?

[AKaeTrue]

Maybe medication would work if you have a mental illness.
You don't have to check into a nuthut in order to be treated. You can see your doctor or possibly you have a mental health clinic where you live?

Maybe you just need to decide that you must be a grown up and take care of what needs to be taken care of, like cleaning, laundry, meals, etc.

Maybe a combination of the both.

Believe me no one in their right mind loves doing house work.
But having everything clean and no dirty laundry laying around,
And good wholesome meals is a reward in itself and your fiancé
Will probably really appreciate all your efforts.

All of this combined and you just might feel better about yourself too (mentally and physically).

[Choux]

Do you have a substance abuse problem?

[princessgoofygo]

See the thing is, is that I've been so stressed about money I was supposed to get a check from SS from march and they've messed my hole file up and I have no Medicare used to have Prime west so everything was free. A $999 doctor bill and can't pay that because I have other bills to pay my prescription is $400 and I get it for $50 and without my meds I'm CRAZY. I've been admitted to a nut hut before and need to go back because I was a juvenile and was NOT absolutely not going to a foster home no way. But now that I'm an adult I can go and leave as I please without having to be sent to a home. I have so many mental problems I am selfish and was raised that way by my MOM, I am self centered I have severe depression, anxiety, skitzo effective bipolar type 1, I have a personality disorder, a mood disorder, multiple mood swings, I'm an emotional basket case that only wants what I want when I want and freak if I don't, and I am now realizing it because I see my mom the same way and she pisses me off she gets me down to my last nerve she's f'in stupid, (I know that's not nice to say about my mom but she isn't really a mom to me anyway so yeah) and I am the same way but more educated. I also have an anger problem and I wig out and want to hit things but don't I just cry and freak and go crazy and it gets bad, but I don't hurt anyone though just my emotions. My finance does everything to keep me happy, like cook because he's a chef, gets me really nice things and nobody has ever bought things for me that they know ill like, like he does he studies me and everything to make sure he does everything right and all I do is just, me, myself, I, mine. Not ours or us or we. When he talks to me I listen but I don't hear it it doesn't stick so he says it over and over again and he gets upset because he gets tired of having to hear and say the same thing every month or week or day, I just want to be able to take in what he says but my head shuts out everything it doesn't want to hear and only hears what it wants to hear and it just makes thing worse. I do things for him and I expect him to praise me for it because mostly everything I do I end up screwing it up and he has to finish it and then I cry because he gets pissy and it doesn't help when me and him have the same mental issues, and he doesn't have feelings, well he does but like not like normal guys he is like an but a nice guy all in one sexy package, lol. And he does NOT put up with crying at all like he gets pissed because like I said I shut down when I hear something about me that's true but don't want to admit it, but anyway you probably don't want to know my whole life's story but if you have any advice I will surly take it. Thanks. Amanda

[princessgoofygo]

"wooooooooooo hooooooooooooo go Obama and don't pick Hillary or people will hate you pick Edwards you'll get further."

I smoke marijuana but that's it, and drink sometimes. I used to drink bad but stopped it got old and was sick of the hangovers the next day. And the gutrott and dryheaves.

[Choux]

Since you're bouncing off the walls, I think you have to go to the emergency room. :)

That's what they are for. Emergencies.


Take good care,