[I am not a Patsy]

In October, I was introduced to a guy named Andrew. Andrew is the opposite of me. He skates, he's awkward looking , he doesn't do well in school, and he doesn't come from a well rounded family. Oh yeah, he's a total pothead. I grew close to this guy like no other. This kid is one in a million. He's smart, I swear. You can hold conversations with him that differ far beyond normality. He is special. The only problem is , he didn't apply himself to anything.
One night, I told him I loved him and we kissed. For the first time, I felt a spark. Something was there. We started going out but after a while we stopped talking because some of his personal circumstances.
So then my new boyfriend steps into the picture. He was actually an ex-boyfriend. This guy is Mr.Perfect, hands down. He does everything right. We get along great, and it's been about 4 months now.
Suddenly out of nowhere Andrew is always on my mind. It's almost ridiculous. I think about him everyday. Every night. I dream about the time we kissed. That feeling comes back to me, so strong that I actually enjoy the thoughts. I'm becoming unhappy with my present surroundings. I have become depressed. I paint , sketch and write anything that reminds me of Andrew. I haven't seen him in months. All I know is he isn't doing well.
(Drugs. Enough said)
I would just like some insight.
What's going on?

[oneguyinohio]

Sounds like you are unhappy in your present situation, and remembering back to a happier time. That doesn't mean that you want or should go back to Andrew, because of the negative side of that situation... only that you are not feeling completely happy or satisfied with your current situation. I don't know the reasons for your depression or unhappiness with the current surroundings... could be that you don't feel drawn to Mr. Perfect for some reason... you might have some desire to be with someone who sees things differently... or you might be wanting to be with someone who is needier than Mr. Perfect... I can only guess... but you will have to be the one to evaluate the source of your feelings and the course of action that is wisest for yourself.