What's going on with my mind? Seriously, I need good advise.
In October, I was introduced to a guy named Andrew. Andrew is the opposite of me. He skates, he's awkward looking , he doesn't do well in school, and he doesn't come from a well rounded family. Oh yeah, he's a total pothead. I grew close to this guy like no other. This kid is one in a million. He's smart, I swear. You can hold conversations with him that differ far beyond normality. He is special. The only problem is , he didn't apply himself to anything.
One night, I told him I loved him and we kissed. For the first time, I felt a spark. Something was there. We started going out but after a while we stopped talking because some of his personal circumstances.
So then my new boyfriend steps into the picture. He was actually an ex-boyfriend. This guy is Mr.Perfect, hands down. He does everything right. We get along great, and it's been about 4 months now.
Suddenly out of nowhere Andrew is always on my mind. It's almost ridiculous. I think about him everyday. Every night. I dream about the time we kissed. That feeling comes back to me, so strong that I actually enjoy the thoughts. I'm becoming unhappy with my present surroundings. I have become depressed. I paint , sketch and write anything that reminds me of Andrew. I haven't seen him in months. All I know is he isn't doing well.
(Drugs. Enough said)
I would just like some insight.
What's going on?