[sad woman]

I'm still in love... with my ex-boyfriend.. . And I'm married. But we did not have a old fasion relationship; (it's a long story) we love each other, but we did not have enough patiance ( I was right after a ugly divorce with my first husband)I've never fallen out of love, I never got over him. And it was my fault that we broke up in the first place. We kept in touch, 3 years ago we started to e-mai to each other. But I have always been in love with him. I think about him all the time.
It's been about 5 years since we broke up. He really was incredible, the best you can imagine! And I'm not just talking about sex, but that too! We used to have all these romantic talks. We had really good times.
But I've been married for over a year now, and I feel really awful about this all. I really can't get over him, I've tried everything!

[statictable]

The situation you've clearly posted can make the "heart grow fonder" but we're all one step above that; we control "it" not the other way around. Try working on simple self control, maybe food or drink or anything you'd like to stop or change. Slowly build yourself control (slowly) and in time you'll be able to enjoy the memories of past relationships without getting your socks wet. Good luck. Ps take care of your husband; there is a reason you married him and right now you probably don't know that reason but it's there and you'll feel it again.