[Meleeny15]

The first time I ever drank alcohol it was summer 05 and I was 12. I went to Florida with 2 of my friends and her brother and dad. We stayed at there grandparents house and her brother got us a bottle of hennesey. After that night I didn't drink for months. But I started pills a few months later around december(getting them from my mom). At first it was once in a while and that eventually progresed to once every weekend and then eventually twice a weekend and then When it got to summer (06) I was doing them just about everynite. (somas (muscle relaxers), ambeins and narcos). I was still getting drunk but not nearly as much as I was getting high. Then late in August was the first time I tried pot. I was mainly still taking pills but every once in a while I was smoking too. Late November my mom got her own place and I decided to move in with her.. shes a herion addict and she was constantly high, so I could take 10 pills from her and she wouldn't notice. But since I was doing it all the time my tolerance grew, I used to take 2 somas and now I was up to 5. I knew it was dangerous to be taking htat many especially since I'm 5'3 and 110 lbs but I wouldn't feel it if I took any less. The high was getting crappy too, it wasn't the same giggly fun high that I used to get. So then I switched to smoking pot and I was doing the pills less and less, I only did them once a week when I was doing them 3 or 4 times a week. Me and my close friend decided we should quit the pills, so we were only doing pot. Then with weed at first it was only once a week I would smoke and then it became both days on the weekend I was smoking. Me and my mom started getting really close and she agreed she would buy me beer and I could have a party with only a couple of girl friends and we could drink. What she didn't know was we were inviting guys to and we all had sleepovers in my room, this happened 5 or 6 times until july16 my mom got arrested for selling to an undercover cop(pills) and possession of herion. The police trashed my house and I had to clean up everything, I came across my moms bottle of pills and there was 42 somas and 30 vikes, and 5 zaneks.(cant spell it) (I dotn know why the police didn't take them). Even though I said I was done with pills I had done them a couple times here and there by myself but I didn't tell my friend because he had sworn to quit, but since I had just been given sooo many pills I wasn't going to throw them out, so I kept them for me and my friends and I was high every single day for 2 weeks straight until they were completely gone. After that I didn't do them much for the rest of the summer and I was smoking 5 or 6 times a week for the rest of summer.
Then when September rolled around I was smoking every weekend Friday night, Saturday morning, Saturday night, Sunday morning and Sunday night and once on the week day too. I tried salvia after the schools homecoming in October and I'm in love with it, then a friend said that you get the same trippy feeling on shrooms except 100x more and since then I've been wanting to try that. I want to try lsd too. I do know risks and all that crap about them from stories both my parents have shared.
a couple close friends are afraid I may be developing a drug problem, or I'm guna get one in the futur. I assure them I'm going to be okay because since both my parents are ex-addicts I know what to look out for like if it was getting that bad I would lay off but I know people who smoke weed everyday and I'm not like that so its not that bad.
my question is does this sound like a drug problem in the making?

[N0help4u]

but since i was doing it all the time my tolerance grew, i used to take 2 somas and now i was up to 5. I knew it was dangerous to be taking htat many especially since im 5'3 and 110 lbs but i wouldnt feel it if i took any less. The high was getting crappy too, it wasnt the same giggly fun high that i used to get. So then I switched to smoking pot and i was doing the pills less and less, i only did them once a week when i was doing them 3 or 4 times a week. Me and my close friend decided we should quit the pills, so we were only doing pot. Then with weed at first it was only once a week i would smoke and then it became both days on the weekend i was smoking. Me and my mom started getting really close and she agreed she would buy me beer and i could have a party wiht only a couple of girl friends and we could drink. What she didnt know was we were inviting guys to and we all had sleepovers in my room,

Gee all that and you want to try and add MORE drugs? Isn't what you have done enough of a sample for you to realize you need more cause your tolerance changes, you get tired of the crappy high, etc...
What about when it snowballs to the point you do bad combo's and have to be rushed to the ER?
How are you going to feel when they take you off your mother for being unfit and a bad influence?
Why is this the life you want? Don't you have any dreams? Goals? Where D0 you picture yourself in 15 years from now?
I have a feeling that in 15 years your life will be worse off than where your mother's is now.

[ttara81]

This is a real bad situation. But I can't really blame you. Look at the environment you're growing up in, with both your mom and dad on drugs. BUT, you would think that you would want to break the cycle since you've seen what your parents have been through. I hate to say this, but you need to be taken away from your parents and be around positive influences. If all you've ever grown up around was drugs, then that's all you're going to know. I don't know what other family you have, but someone should have stepped in and tried to do something about this... a long time ago. It sounds like it's gotten to the point where you need help. Are you in school? If so, how do you function, being on all these different drugs? If you lived around my area, DSS would have taken over this matter... trust me. You've GOT to get around some positive influences. Can you talk to your guidance counselor at school (if you're in school)? You've already got a drug problem... it's already made. You say you know the risks and all that "crap" from the stories your parents have shared... obviously it's not clicking in your head... you have definitely got to out of this situation.