[aguilar64]

I am a have bi-polar disease and I also feel like I have dual personalities, there is the gentleman and the gangster I have trusted my girlfriend with this problem and she takes it in stride which is why I love her, but the mood swings they always have me feeling like she is out cheating on me I am always thinking she is out cheating on me. I try to fight by evil side but I can't seeking professional help is out of the question money is tight. It has gotten to the point where she thinks I do not trust her but I do I just can not control the evil side. I feel that maybe am not worth the trouble I give her. She wants to marry me and I do too. If I go to anyone they tell me to suck it up. My mental health is secret to everyone I can not tell anyone I too proud to admit it to anyone close except her but the same thing might take us over. If you want more about me just talk to me

[GlindaofOz]

Have you contacted your city/town's Department of Human Services? You can get mental healthcare for as little as $5. You need to be on medication. Bi Polar disorder is a serious medical condition. I don't think anyone on this site can really help too much since no one is a mental health professional

[cyrenasworld]

Aguilar, please swallow your pride and get help. My marriage was over in less than one year because my husband is bi-polar and had the same "cheating" paranoia. Mental health care professionals operate under a code of conduct that PROHIBITS them from sharing your business with anyone else. Just because your not threatening suicide or to harm anyone else doesn't mean you are not in a state of crisis. Call a crisis hotline and they can give you some ideas of where to go in your area for little to no money. You have taken the first step in admitting you have this problem but your girlfriend is not a trained professional and she can't cure you. She might be "taking it in stride" now but believe me, having been there myself

"She will get tired of carrying the weight of this burden" -read that over and over until your convinced to get help-

Big hugs to you !

[talaniman]

You need to be under the supervision of a professional, anything less would be irresponsible.