[shatteredsoul]

Hello there all! Jesushelper, I remember when both my children were babies and think back to how precious and beautiful that time was and I realize my husband worked through most of it. Running a small business is hard work but he is tenacious and spends his life trying to provide us with a good life. You are so blessed to have that time with them and they are so blessed to have you be so excited about being with them. IT is a wonderful thing, family. It can also be the worst thing. Yet we have the opportunity every day to make it better, to enjoy it more and to be thankful for the joy in our lives. This brings us to the awareness of love all around us, as start puts it. TOmorrow is never promised, but we have today, right now, this minute, this moment to feel that way and be better.

[startover22]

Hey guys, my dad's place is so pretty, I thought of you and shattered I saw a nice pond and dock with your name on it! My dad is great, it was nice to see that sparkle in his eye, I get that from him and I miss him more than I thought... I have never gotten a hug like that from him ever, actually I think there were two of them. He misses me and I am glad. I thought he wasn't coming around because he didn't want to but now I know I was wrong. There are issues that hold him back but again that will have to wait for another post! Anyhow, we made it, I won the bet, we got out by five AM, I can't believe I actually woke up at 4:15. I am trying to use this laptop, I am not used to it at all. Just to let you know I went to church for all of 6 hours. That is how long the drive was and there was no denying God the whole way! I hope he likes a little rap and rock cause the kids and I sang all the way here... Hope all is well. Hugs, Start

[JoeCanada76]

Hello there all! Jesushelper, I remember when both my children were babies and think back to how precious and beautiful that time was and I realize my husband worked through most of it. Running a small business is hard work but he is tenacious and spends his life trying to provide us with a good life. You are so blessed to have that time with them and they are so blessed to have you be so excited about being with them. IT is a wonderful thing, family. It can also be the worst thing. Yet we have the opportunity every day to make it better, to enjoy it more and to be thankful for the joy in our lives. This brings us to the awareness of love all around us, as start puts it. TOmorrow is never promised, but we have today, right now, this minute, this moment to feel that way and be better.

Shattered,

Growing up I had a biological father that was not there for most my life. Later on I had a stepdad that raised me but of course it was not the same. To this very day he is a workalholic. Seven days a week. Caused friction and tension and much more. It showed me and taught me what is more important in life. I am completely the opposite because of the way I was raised up. That is why at the beginning I said my only true Father, is God. How he was my role model. Even with extra time with my baby and my wife sometimes I feel it is not enough and that I need more. All I know is that I am a better person today because of what experiences I have had in the past. It is a beautiful and precious time and I hope and pray that my baby boy and wife and any future children will benefit and have even a better future because of the values and presence of a committed husband and both parents being their for them.

Thank you Shattered for what you wrote.


Joe

[shatteredsoul]

I am glad to hear you got there safe, start. I can picture the pond and the dock right now, I am ready to jump in and do a cannonball! Or just fish off the dock and watch the sun go down. Well, I know that feeling of missing your dad, and getting that kind of a hug knocks you all the way back to childhood. I mean feeling safe and happy in his arms. I am sure he is happy to see you and a those smiling grandkids! I am glad you enjoyed your own religious experience along the way, living in the moment is the grandest gift of all!! I will be singing rap and rock as soon as I start the car, so I am just as guilty! HUGS to all!

[JoeCanada76]

Hey guys, my dad's place is so pretty, I thought of you and shattered I saw a nice pond and dock with your name on it!! My dad is great, it was nice to see that sparkle in his eye, I get that from him and I miss him more than I thought....I have never gotten a hug like that from him ever, actually i think there were two of them. He misses me and I am glad. I thought he wasn't coming around because he didn't want to but now i know I was wrong. There are issues that hold him back but again that will have to wait for another post! Anyhow, we made it, I won the bet, we got out by five AM, I can't believe i actually woke up at 4:15. I am trying to use this laptop, I am not used to it at all. Just to let you know I went to church for all of 6 hours. That is how long the drive was and there was no denying God the whole way!! I hope he likes a little rap and rock cause the kids and I sang all the way here.....Hope all is well. Hugs, Start

Start, I am so happy for you that he missed you and that you have got an embrace of a loving and caring father. So happy that you had an excellent drive there. Rap and rock is all good, lol. Quality time with your kids. Happy things are well for everybody. That your there safe and sound.

Lots of hugs to all.

Joe

[shatteredsoul]

Oh Jesushelper, they already are benefitting from it, they already are. You learned through loss and disappointment and pain, that is truly the most insightful thing you could gain from such an experience. I wish you didn't have to endure such a childhood, but from what you didn't have, you give to your family and hence, you have in a different but just as fulfilling way. I am happy to know such a committed and loving husband and I think your values and presence seep through the pages of these posts for all to read. You are right, you have one true father and you are honoring him well.

[startover22]

Hey shattered, I loved the trip, my dad was so kind and was as patient as a 59 year old man can be with the kids. He had picked flowers before I got there and put them in the most beautiful vase I have ever seen and he also bought me a little blooming plant at the store so I could take it home with me. (keep in mind my dad doesn't buy things for ANYBODY) OK, I will go on and I will get to the point later: My kids, well, he went to the grocery store and bought a bunch of "kid food" he bought these special fishing poles that look like shot guns or something, musta been spendy, you can only get them on T.V... he gave my some a 1916 boyscout knife, my daughter a nice fishing pole and tried to buy her a pair of shoes at the hardware store (they were too small) took the big kids down to the rodeo. He spend every waking moment with my kids, he never took one nap (HE ALWAYS TAKES A NAP) You guys it was so crazy, every time the kids walk out, he would ask was I good to you? What about this situation, did I handle it right, did I pay attention? He listened and ask why I never told him about some things and I said well, I thought it was your job to find them out and then we just sat there laughing, almost crying at some points. Too wonderful of a trip. Loved it. I am pooped but I loved every minute of it. So now I get to my point, this man has been sort of distant for almost 15 years, not gone but he is distant, he married a woman that we all never liked and still have a hard time being around her, I think he has something up his sleeve, I think my dad wanted me to know he was sorry for the mistakes he made, I told him I was sorry too, but if he would have really cared about what I said "back then" I would not have done half the stuff I did and gotten myself into trouble. I want to say that, Love was all around me, there was light at the end of my tunnel, and I am learning to this day about the man I have known for 32+ years. Thanks for listening to my rave! Hope you guys had something change in you this weekend. It was remote and beautiful where I was I am in awe.

[shatteredsoul]

I am so happy and excited for you!! This journey really was life changing it seems! Yes, I understand and I can relate. I think we are more similar than we know! He really was reaching out to you and trying to discover where and when he went wrong in anything along the way. What more could a child ask for?? NOt that you are a child, but to him you always will be his little girl. IT sounds like he doted on the children and enjoyed every minute of it. What a blessing!! I wonder what's the similarity, my dad is also a remote and beautiful place. ITs great to get away and be a part of something so simple and breathtaking at the same time. I am sure you weren't worried about laundry or bills till you got back. The house I am sure needs a once over. I know when I go away with the kids, he might have tried to clean up, but it ain't the same!! LOL Well, you are right, light and love are all around you and it is radiating outwards as bright as the sun!! I got to put on glasses so I don't go blind from it! HEEEE HEE. Its amazing ,how parents can pleasantly surprise you when you least expect it. Good. I am glad everything turned out great, it couldn't have been a better time! Welcome back friend !

[startover22]

I missed you Shattered, I could have used your words when I was talking to my dad, yours seem to flow much better than mine. I sure didn't have a problem getting them out though... LOL Ya it has been great. I know he had a nice time. I am going to go get some stuff done. I will be back on later. Hope you had a good week end. Hugs, Start

[shatteredsoul]

AWWWW thanks start. I am glad you missed me! Well you know what I mean. I don't think that my words flow better, I just don't shut up long enough for them to stop pouring out. I think you are one of the few who like to hear me go on and on. What you say is pure, and beautiful and simple. Simplicity is a good thing. I am still working on that. I scare people away with my gibberish. I am sure whatever you shared was from the heart and it was music to his ears, with all of you there, the LOVE was ALL AROUND HIM!!

[startover22]

Hey Joe, thanks for the greenie, you are too sweet. How is the house? Done redoing it for the "big" boy. Just wait till he gets in the dishwasher and refuses to come out. Sh-- I have so many wonderful pictures of my kids in mischief... I wish I could get an album together just of those pictures alone, that would be so funny!! Jett he was about 1, he got out the flour and eggs and butter and spread it all over the floor drew pictures in it, I was laughing so hard when I found him, he is still doing things like that and he is 5, sheesha, those were the good ole days! Come back Joe, no more cheap shots, you got to post honey! And might I ask where is Proud? That girl hasn't been posting, remember practice makes perfect!!

[JoeCanada76]

Proud, is resting right now. I am just dropping in to say hello...

Lol Cheap shots, I thought you liked my greenies. Lol

[startover22]

Oh don't get me wrong I think you owe me a lot of greenies considering you gave me a reddie a while back. I haven't even been posting on new threads so I can hardly give any feedback anymore, you guys are taking up my precious great advice. LOL anyway glad she is getting rest, she seems like a very lovely woman, she needs to open up a bit, make sure she gets on, k?

[JoeCanada76]

Cmeo Cmeo No I Ma Wiaitng OFR A RPEONSE. Plaese Respnod SONO.

Hee hee

k, I wlli od ym bets ot gte erh to open pu.


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I think that 100 greenies to balance out the one reddie is good enough. Come on now and give me some slack will you, where is the love now.? Lol

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Yes, she does need to open up. She will eventually. It does take time.

Joe

[startover22]

You are such a nerd.

[JoeCanada76]

Gee thanks that is so nice of you. Meanie.

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You siad that ew cluod wirte aoute ayntihg.

There was an experiment about how if you just mix the words up and when you read it your mind can still figure out the words even though they are mixed up is that not so cool or what.

[startover22]

There is so much more where that came from, I am spunky today... better look out the spunk is going to get you, LOLOLOLOLOHAHAHAHAHAHALOLOLOL

[startover22]

I have to say real quick that "I live with my family where I belong" is the best one I have seen yet! Love it Joe... OK back to the spunk..

[JoeCanada76]

Ti si sceince, the way the brian can figrue out wodsr eevn when thye aer lal mixde pu.

[JoeCanada76]

Thank you start, That is exactly how I feel.

I live with my family, where I belong.