Originally Posted by shatteredsoul
I think you covered enough territory with this thread, this should be safe for a while here. LOL Well. I don't want to come off sounding too cliche. I think the motto that stands out for me is, you can't really love anyone until you love yourself. It became so clear to me after becoming a mom at 24. I didn't think I was really good at anything or that worthy, but when I held my daughter for the first time, she looked at me with complete love and adoration. She was part of me, and it made me see, I can't be all that bad. That is the day I began to love myself again. I lost that somewhere around age 11 or 12 after my parents got divorced and my mom decided to be with another woman. It was so difficult to accept myself as normal at that age anyway and with that, it became really hard. That is when I stopped talking to God for a long time. I grew up a Catholic and became a spiritual warrior in the face of politics and bull@@$@ religion. I respect it, I just don't buy it. I had a son three years later and I had a newfound sense of self respect and worth. I used to want six until I realized two was all I could handle. My husband showed me unconditional love and support also. He is source of strength and stability for me, and he has also helped me to believe in myself and see my potential. I gave up law school so I could stay home with my little man. That was humbling to say the least. After I finally figured out I loved law and had the nerve to go back and get my Bachelors. I actually do well in school this time and I find my calling to be an Appellate attorney., or maybe a Supreme Court Justice. The dreams were big, but my journey as a mother had begun again and I needed to give him the same attention. So the dreams changed again and I took on role of trying to be Super Mom. I wasn't going to miss a thing. ITs great having babies and raising little tots, but ohhh they are so much work. What if I screw them up? What is my biggest downfall? My lack of patience, my anger and inability to deal with selfish and mean people. That is what gets me the most. I love openly and freely and I accept it freely in return, that is what I live by too. I get angry and impatient, but I get over it really quick. I have a big mouth, I say what I feel and I am honest to a fault. Am I on my way to something special? I feel like everyday is special but I still think I am kid trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up!! Then I realize, I am and I don't know yet!!!My teenage years were turbulent and lonely and they taught me the most. I am still learning about how to deal with change, another toughie for me and how to not be so attached to those I love. I could go on with more but I will give someone else a turn now.....