[JudyKayTee]

Yeah i need to make him miss me i need to learn him a leason i wanna make him sad

You can't make anyone do anything - you need to talk to a professional. You are allowing this boy to control your life.

[blndsundoll98]

I know that if i killed my self i will be in hell but when someone hopeless he dosen't care or think what's gona happend all i need to end this life :|

If you need someone to talk to you can message me, I will be here for you, its not a good idea to end you life though. I think that you will find someone better. I have been in the same type of situation as you. But like I said just message me when you need something.

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[DsprtCfsd]

Yeah i need to make him miss me i need to learn him a leason i wanna make him sad

You want to kill yourself to hurt him and teach him a lesson? I'd say this goes beyond depression and sounds more like anger to me. You need professional counseling in my honest opinion.

At this point I'm wondering what you are wanting from this thread. Morally or legally I won't involve myself in advising you on how to end your life. I am more than willing to try and talk you down from a ledge but from your answers to the advise it doesn't seem like you are willing to make an effort to get the help from your parents or friends. Please consider seeing a licensed specialist that can help you through this.

[JudyKayTee]

You want to kill yourself to hurt him and teach him a lesson? I'd say this goes beyond depression and sounds more like anger to me. You need professional counseling in my honest opinion.

At this point I'm wondering what you are wanting from this thread. Morally or legally I won't involve myself in advising you on how to end your life. I am more than willing to try and talk you down from a ledge but from your answers to the advise it doesn't seem like you are willing to make an effort to get the help from your parents or friends. Please consider seeing a licensed specialist that can help you through this.

And here's where it gets complicated - she can't talk to her parents who don't know she was dating him, behind their backs: "Yes im dating him in secret but once my parents know and talk to him his parents know about us but my parents dosen't expect to be in relationship with him"

I think OP is looking for sympathy and is not willing to take one step to help herself.

[princess messi]

I do understand, but really, dying isn't the answer.

You need to get out of this slump you're in.

Will you do me a favor? Just one.

Today will you call one of your friends, go out and do something special with that friend. It can be anything. Going to the mall and window shopping, going out for ice caps, going to a movie, or just going for a walk. But go out!

Then, when you get home, write how going out made you feel today.

Don't go out thinking "it's not going to help". Give it your best. Go out with a positive attitude and try to have fun. Okay?

One thing about depression, it can make us isolate ourselves. We don't want to be around people. It's understandable, but it actually makes things worse. Then, the longer we isolate ourselves the more we want to be alone and the more depressed we get because of it.

I know that right now the thought of going out and having fun probably gives you a stomach ache, and you already have excuses for not doing it. Right? Well push through all those excuses and go. I think you may be surprised to find that you'll have more fun that you think you will.

Just give it a try? Please?

Do you know what happened today I call my friend to go out we went to caffe guess what I see him :|||

[JudyKayTee]

Do you know what happend today i call my friend to go out we went to caffe guess what i see him :|||

You don't want to hear this. I realize you would rather suffer BUT it's a free world. He can go anywhere he wants to go.

Is this a café you knew he frequents?

[princess messi]

You don't want to hear this. I realize you would rather suffer BUT it's a free world. He can go anywhere he wants to go.



Is this a cafe you knew he frequents?

No he don't love this coffe :| I saw him and my ex boyfriend he think I'm back to my ex

[Homegirl 50]

Yeah i need to make him miss me i need to learn him a leason i wanna make him sad

Girl if he lies and cheats on you, I doubt that he will feel sad.
I think you are hurt and you want him to hurt too. Killing yourself is not going to do the trick. Moving on with your life and being happy without him will be the ticket.

He needs to be told to stop calling you and you need to stop answering his calls. You also need to get some professional help.
How old are you?

[princess messi]

If you need someone to talk to you can message me, I will be here for you, its not a good idea to end you life though. I think that you will find someone better. I have been in the same type of situation as you. But like I said just message me when you need something.

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Thank you really I need someone to talk to him

[Homegirl 50]

You need some professional help. How old are you?

[DsprtCfsd]

And here's where it gets complicated - she can't talk to her parents who don't know she was dating him, behind their backs: "Yes im dating him in secret but once my parents know and talk to him his parents know about us but my parents dosen't expect to be in relationship with him"

I think OP is looking for sympathy and is not willing to take one step to help herself.

I agree Judy. I just find it interesting that it isn't socially or religiously acceptable for her to have a boyfriend but she's thinking of suicide which I would assume is worse than having a boyfriend. So if it's a dishonor your family issue, what's worse? Having a boyfriend in secret or committing suicide?

Princess I know nothing about your society or religion so I leave this discussion with the above question. If your family isn't a possibility to confide in, than I still stand that you need to talk to a professional in this field.

[princess messi]

I agree Judy. I just find it interesting that it isn't socially or religiously acceptable for her to have a boyfriend but she's thinking of suicide which I would assume is worse than having a boyfriend. So if it's a dishonor your family issue, what's worse? Having a boyfriend in secret or committing suicide?

Princess I know nothing about your society or religion so I leave this discussion with the above question. If your family isn't a possibility to confide in, than I still stand that you need to talk to a professional in this field.

How can I go to professional who can take me I can't tell my parents you need professional and if I tell them and asked me why what can I say :| I'm lonely in this proplem :(((

[Homegirl 50]

I think some of the despair you are feeling comes from lying to your parents. When you have to sneak and deceive it takes a toll on you. You can't share this with anyone because your parents will discover your lie.
Being away from this boy is probably a good thing. I know you don't feel it right now but it is.
Since you won't say how old you are, I'm going to assume you are a young teen. This boy is no good for you anyway. Do you have girl friends, a social life? You need to start having some fun. You are mooning over a guy who cheated on you and did not treat you very well. Was it because he is your first boyfriend that you put up with this?

[princess messi]

I think some of the despair you are feeling comes from lying to your parents. When you have to sneak and deceive it takes a toll on you. You can't share this with anyone because your parents will discover your lie.
Being away from this boy is probably a good thing. I know you don't feel it right now but it is.
Since you won't say how old you are, I'm going to assume you are a young teen. This boy is no good for you anyway. Do you have girl friends, a social life? You need to start having some fun. You are mooning over a guy who cheated on you and did not treat you very well. Was it because he is your first boyfriend that you put up with this?

He's not the first boyfriend but he's the one I love I can't forget him I miss him he make me smile when he call me my angel ican't forget anything about him :| I can't leave him 4 another girl.. Today is the date we meet each other so this is the perfect day to kill
Myself ;)

[JudyKayTee]

He's not the first bf but he's the one i love i can't forget him i miss him he make me smile when he call me my angel ican't forget anything about him :| i can't leave him 4 another girl .. Today is the date we meet each other so this is the perfect day to kill
My self ;)

I may or may not be the only one who feels this way but, quite frankly, I've put a lot of time into this thread, into your problems, and you keep coming back with your threats of suicide.

You don't want help - you want to go someplace where you can whine and complain.

You need to stop lying to your parents; stop sneaking around behind their backs; stop obsessing over this person who very obviously is finished with you (and if you are anything in person like you are on line, needy, whining, threatening, I can understand that); get professional help (call a mental help hotline, talk to someone at school, stop lying to your family and ask for help); and grow up.

Thirty-three days and 55 posts later and you've made absolutely no progress because you very obviously don't want to make any progress.

I, quite frankly, am beyond frustrated with you and into bored. That's about as honest as it gets.

[Heartache402]

I've been followinf your story and in the very initials I supported you too. But you're right Judy. What was your purpose of posting your problem on this site, when you had to ignore all the opinions , support and evrything? You wanted sympathy? Or do you really want someone to crib and cry over you that don't suicide. I was in a abusive relationship , I posted my problem , experts gave me there advise , I understood them ,followed them Imbibed them... And this is how it goes. But seems like you've been adamantly stuck upon one single thought. I.e. suicide. Will you call it bravery to kill yourself for a fool , just for the sake of REVENGE? I may sound rude , but I will call it sheer MADNESS. Ok today
You kill a self for a loser , how long do you think will it leave an impact on him a day ? A week? A month? But then he'll forget it & move on in his life & what did you do , you WASTED your life & your death ! Yes you got that right you'll just Waste it. The one who does not care now , won't carr in the future too. You are being stupid.
Why don't you just try , try living a hard life for sometime? I don't think killing is better than trying is it? May be you get your prince charming on the path of trying rather than suiciding. Suicide is an act done by cowards. There is absolutely no bravery in this.Though you need professional help but since you
Can't seek professional help , OK! But at least You can help yourself . Be a little flexible . Or open to the long list of opinions that have been given to you on this site.
Cribbing onto one thing will do no good. You are just harming yourself more by this attitude.
Start being positive.
Remember , god help those who help themselves.
Similar is the situation with humans. Your friends and everyone. We all can suggest you. But if you will give a deaf ear to everything that everybody says . No one will stand by you , in your support .
Grow up, you're just a kiddo!

[Homegirl 50]

Are you just hoping your ex will see all these post and come back to you?
I think you are enjoying this attention.
You don't want help because you are getting it here and you are not even paying attention.
Stop lying to your parents, talk to a counselor at school, and be glad this boy is out of your life. This is just pure dysfunction.

[JudyKayTee]

Are you just hoping your ex will see all these post and come back to you?
I think you are enjoying this attention.
You don't want help because you are getting it here and you are not even paying attention.
Stop lying to your parents, talk to a counselor at school, and be glad this boy is out of your life. This is just pure dysfunction.

My suspicion is that we are seeing here the very reasons her parents don't want her to date and she has to go behind their backs. Immaturity.

[Homegirl 50]

Yep!

[princess messi]

Are you just hoping your ex will see all these post and come back to you?
I think you are enjoying this attention.
You don't want help because you are getting it here and you are not even paying attention.
Stop lying to your parents, talk to a counselor at school, and be glad this boy is out of your life. This is just pure dysfunction.

What to you saying I don't need any attention all I need someone can say to me step by step what I should do