[smoothy]

Its only hard at first... it gets easier by the day until one day a light really does click on and you can actually say to yourself... what the hell did I ever see in her... and believe it deep into your bones.

And until then you keep reminding yourself what a sucker you were for letting her play you like she has been......sometimes demonizing her a bit helps give you that last extra bit of resolve you need to keep your mind in a place it needs to be....

[Homegirl 50]

I think you are afraid she won't come back to you. She may find that she wants different. This is about you, not her.

[Lost-in-emotion]

Damn Im afraid of that thought homegirl... I guess I am scared of a beuised ego..
F*** it though I can't think about that arghh

[J_9]

Please watch your language. We have children that view this site.

You block her or not. That is your choice. But it's also your choice as to whether you want to be treated as a door mat.

[Lost-in-emotion]

Im going to block her

[J_9]

Im going to block her

That's the mature thing to do.

[Lost-in-emotion]

But freaking hard! It's the 'its over' statement... Officially...
Here ballin eyes out mann really weird

[J_9]

It's not going to be easy dude. Nothing about ending a relationship is easy. But, do you want to continue being treated this way? What would happen if children were involved? Would you want to raise them in this dysfunctional relationship.

Dude, nothing in life that is worth anything is easy. It does get better with time. The initial shock will wear off.

[Lost-in-emotion]

Thx J 9, you are right. 100%
Im going to go three this struggle with my head held high,
Tell myself its better this way...
I'll update in a week or something, tell you guys if I'm good

[Oliver2011]

"I'll update in a week or something, tell you guys if I'm good" If? Why if? How old are you again? (checking - please hold). I think you said 23. At 23 you should know that you and only you is in control of how you feel. Why are you allowing her to have that control?

Your relationship was far from healthy. You are dependent on an unhealthy relationship and she is as well. We have all gone through breakups and we have all survived. Keep yourself and your mind busy and each day will get a little easier.

[Lost-in-emotion]

So its been a week since we broke it off, and everyday since is very different. I started a roof job, helps get my mind off things and the prospect of multiple more jobs coming is helping me get threw this. But still, more stress, placed in a different area with materials and a lazy employee which I fired and got another, bunch of bla bla but all good. She texted me Thursday morning said, its too hard this morning just wanted to text you good morning :)
Like the dummy that I am, I was on the roof working, saw the text and replied instantly 'you just made my day' . I gave her her security which I shouldn't of done... Then Friday, yesterday, I initiated contact and asked her to come over for some goodbye sex, she refused, said it was too hard on her and if she would see me it'd be even harder. We ended up texting pretty much all night about what we want in life, how to find ourselves alone, etc. And that's it. Now she will leave on vacaqtion with her mom for a week and I think its finally over, I will have to clear my head but jesus its freaking hard I really want her back, in a different way, to make things better and maintain a healthier lifestyle together, like I know what I have to do and just have to apply this knowledge everyday regardless of if I am with her of without. Anyway not sure what to think at this point, move on give up on her or should I still have hope we can get back together at some point in the near futur...
And Thx Oliver2011 I appreciate, and agree 100% and am trying to be in control!

[smoothy]

Move on.. some things can not be undone... whats happened already are some of those things.

If things are this broken and dysfunctional when you are dating... its only going to get worse in the future. Why? That's just the way it is when you really get tired of dealing with anything. Throwing out 7 wasted years is far better than continuing to waste them for god knows how many more.

You made a HUGE mistake answering her text... because you erased every bit of progress you made in the right direction.

[Oliver2011]

"But still, more stress, placed in a different area with materials and a lazy employee which I fired and got another, bunch of bla bla but all good." Welcome to the adult world. We all have those stresses on some level. Learn to deal with them and overcome and they will seem a lot less each time.

Smoothy said it correctly and I have nothing more to add.