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My boyfriend of 2 years never told he wasn't a virgin until I had to find out on my own. It was actually heartbreaking. There were rumors going around in school saying that he had sex with his girlfriend of almost 2 years that he first started dating in the 8th grade but once they got to high school they broke it off. Then they were just talking and then hooked up. Then that's when I met my boyfriend. His ex never really liked me and I didn't really care but I always wondered why. I was a virgin to begin with and I was trying to find someone who was just as equal as me, that's all I wanted. My boyfriend is the perfect guy, sweet, understanding, loyal, the perfect 10. So when he asked me if I was a virgin I said yeah, and he replied yes too. Thinking he was a virgin too, I gave him my virginity until two years later I find out he wasn't. He lost it to his ex that he wasn't dating at the time and I had to find out through her. I was tired of the rumors so I just straight up asked her. Then when I tried to confront him about it, he tried to lie, to cover it up. But soon he was caught way too deep in his lie to lie his way out. It hurt, really bad, at the moment I was in shock. For 2 years I believed this guy was perfect and he'd be the one. Eventually through weeks of embarrassment, my whole entire school finding out, people feeling bad for me, arguments between me and him, I took him back, thinking I forgave him. But the real problem was that I didn't forgive myself. I basically went against what I wanted and here I am almost 3 years into the relationship acting like I'm okay. But it still hurts. They say the past is the past, but people don't understand when I say I can't let go. He thought he would lose me if he told me the truth earlier, and yes he would've. But if he did, I could've found someone else. I say I love him no matter what, but I can't decide if I'm lying to myself. He always talks about our future, but I know I can't marry a guy that lied to me about something so precious when he knew how important it was for me. I ask myself why I'm in this relationship, but I'm just scared. I've always been a good girlfriend to him in the beginning, always put himself before me, but after the incident everything changed. I don't want to say everything cause it'd be sooo long, so my advice is leave the guy. Find someone who won't lie about their past to you, even if you think you love this guy, don't make the stupid mistake I did.
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