[_abcd]

So everything is ok now. Right?

... I haven't heard any words of reassurance. You are simply telling me to go to people to talk to when I have already said there's no one I can really talk to in person about it. Which is why I came to the forum, to maybe hear other people's words of advice/wisdom.

[Wondergirl]

there's no one I can really talk to in person about it

There is no counselor at your college.

There is no town or city close by where counselors could be.

Is that correct?

[_abcd]

Ok...
Talking to someone in person is not an option. I just need to someone on this forum to tell me that what I did was silly, and be sincere about it... and that we all have to learn from our mistakes in the past... I can't seem to find peace telling myself that.

[AKaeTrue]

Seriously though, I don't think I need a professional. Maybe I just need some reassurance that I what I did wasn't wrong and people make mistakes and I just need to learn from it...I just need to hear someone say that. I'm so ashamed that it happened, but I know there's nothing I can do to take it back.

Try not to look at it as a mistake.
View it as a learning experience while experimenting...
You tried it, it wasn't for you, you now know that it's not your sexual preference, other people have done the same stuff before, and some people have done a lot worse.
You are only human and it was something you did while experimenting...
Lots of people have... try to keep that in mind.

[Marily]

Maybe it would help if you stop entertaining these thougts, after all the greatest battle ever fought is in the mind.

[americangayboy]

You can spend money on a therapist, but they'll tell you the same thing I'm about to: you're the only one who knows why you keep thinking about this incident. YOU will find the answer if you just think about it. Once you've figured out why you can't stop thinking about it, you'll probably know how to let go of the obsession.

[Wondergirl]

American, that's not ALL therapists do. Some of us have a brain and problem-solving abilities and deductive reasoning and know how to use them to elicit whys and wherefores from the client himself. We don't just throw him to the wolves. We're in there, in the fray, fighting right alongside him.

[Wondergirl]

Abcd -- Here's how to begin to do this on your own: First, write down thoroughly, stream of consciousness style and not necessarily in any order, every single thing you can think of about the incident. Include as many details as you can (even of setting, clothing worn, time of day, etc.), remember your impressions from your five senses (what you heard, smelled, tasted, physically felt, saw), and then throw in your feelings about any part and all parts of what was happening.

Once you've done that (and keep this in a safe place), go back over it and revise it, add to it, delete from it, put it in better order.

It sounds like a school assignment and will take you a while, but there is a plan afoot.

Let me know when you have this finished.

[TIGAHWP]

Let it go. Hand over your burden to God. Ask for His forgiveness. Let go and let God.

[KBC]

Let it go. Hand over your burden to God. Ask for His forgiveness. Let go and let God.

This post is over a year old,I don't think the poster is going to respond to your answer.

[friendtohelp]

I had similar experience with my friend and if you feel that taking to me will help please feel free to email me [email protected]

[Jdsnz]

Dear stranger, in response to your worry I can assure you that I completely understand. I guess this is just part of life. And those thought are simply there to remind us of the things we shouldn't be doing. We all have them, my best advice to you is to seek a friend you trust who can help you out when those thoughts come by. It is always going to be difficult since we cannot completely erase our memories, and if there was a method to I would hope to have known of it already, thus my life would be different. I as well as you have the same issue and it does take a toll in your life don't it? Look for different ways to keep your mind busy and away from the problem, get a hobby I don't know. But don't give up, and don't keep beating yourself up with a stick eighter bro. hope this helps you out a bit. I know writing this helped me out .