[Timberrr]

I have a fear of disappointing people, and in fact, I usually do. I fail and falter, but I know that I shouldn't and that people don't want to expect it. So instead of confiding in those I love (and who love me) I hold all of my fears and flaws in, and lie. If I get a C, I tell people it's an A. I don't have a job, but I create elaborate stories about my workplace and employment details. I live with my boyfriend, but my mother doesn't approve so I tell her I'm living with a friend. The lies keep flowing, and to cover them up, I push people away. I stop talking to them because I fear that they will try to get closer to me, and when they do they will discover that I sit on a throne of lies.

Everyone close to me has their suspicions, but I don't let them in to verify. I love these people. And I know they love me, but I hate being the failure. So instead of getting better, I lie.

[Alty]

I have a fear of disappointing people, and in fact, I usually do. I fail and falter, but I know that I shouldn't and that people don't want to expect it. So instead of confiding in those I love (and who love me) I hold all of my fears and flaws in, and lie. If I get a C, I tell people it's an A. I don't have a job, but I create elaborate stories about my workplace and employment details. I live with my boyfriend, but my mother doesn't approve so I tell her I'm living with a friend. The lies keep flowing, and to cover them up, I push people away. I stop talking to them because I fear that they will try to get closer to me, and when they do they will discover that I sit on a throne of lies.

Everyone close to me has their suspicions, but I don't let them in to verify. I love these people. And I know they love me, but I hate being the failure. So instead of getting better, I lie.

Is there something in your past that makes you think lying is better then telling the truth?

What happens when you manage to push everyone away? It will happen if you continue to do the things you are doing. Do you want to be alone?

Telling a lie is much harder then telling the truth.