[Stringer]

So it's the alcohol. :(

I'm sad Stringer.

Darn. Alcohol is making me talk.

Shut up Alty!

How are you?

Are you asking me 'your' age? :):D:D

[Alty]

Stringer, remind me to read it tomorrow, I'm in no shape
To read it tonight. ;)

[Alty]

Are you asking me 'your' age? :):D:D

Are you trying to confuse a drunken girl? :confused:

[Stringer]

Stringer, remind me to read it tomorrow, I'm in no shape
to read it tonight. ;)

Ok, but it is my second request. That's OK too, it is a little long.

Well have you tried warm milk and a sleeping pill for the kids :):):rolleyes: ?

[Stringer]

Are you trying to confuse a drunken girl? :confused:

I have on occasion (and it was before I married) taken a few liberties.

[Alty]

Ok, but it is my second request. That's ok too, it is a little long.

Well have you tried warm milk and a sleeping pill for the kids :):):rolleyes: ?

Sleeping pills? Hmmmmmm. :)

He doesn't like milk. The pills, don't have them.

As for your post, I didn't see the first time you posted it, but I will read it tomorrow,
Promise. Remind me. I'm tipsy.

Stringer, Starby is in a coma.

I probably shouldn't be on here.

I'm not in a good place right now.

Why is life so darn hard?

I should leave. I'm going to regret this.

Love and hugs sweetie.

Going to go warm up some milk. ;)

[HelpinHere]

Go check it now Stringer! :D

Anyway, Alt, only KP can smell desperation, and he uses that to his advantage! ;)
Aww, okay, I'm sure you know what's best... :rolleyes:

Didn't know that about Starb! :eek: Hope she wakes up and gets well soon! What happened?

[Alty]

I have on occasion (and it was before I married) taken a few liberties.

:)

I adore you dear. :)

One thing I know, you would never "take liberties" with me. Not your style. That's why I love you. :)

Even if you were single, you'd be a gentleman.

That's who you are. That's why I adore you. That's my Stringer. :)

[Stringer]

Starby knows that we love her and that we would do anything for her that we could. The fact that we keep her in our hearts is a good thing.

A few of us are affected much more, especially those of us that have gone beyond this site and have talked personally and gotten to really know her. We have had several conversations and I feel close to her and I always will.

[Alty]

Go check it now Stringer! :D

Anyway, Alt, only KP can smell desperation, and he uses that to his advantage! ;)
Aww, okay, I'm sure you know what's best... :rolleyes:

Didn't know that about Starb! :eek: Hope she wakes up and gets well soon! What happened?

KP is a sweetie.

KP is a doll.

Take advantage? I don't think so. He's too nice a guy for that.

Starby is dying. That's the reason for the beer tonight.

Really shouldn't be here.

Sorry to bring you all down.

I should leave you all to it.

[Stringer]

:)

I adore you dear. :)

One thing I know, you would never "take liberties" with me. Not your style. That's why I love you. :)

Even if you were single, you'd be a gentleman.

That's who you are. That's why I adore you. That's my Stringer. :)

Thanks, but being a nice guy sometimes means finishing second, I haven't so that indicates that I have a 'streak' of naughty too. But I am always aware of what I feel is right and what is wrong and how far to take something. Screw up... yep I have and probably will many times again.

[Alty]

Starby knows that we love her and that we would do anything for her that we could. The fact that we keep her in our hearts is a good thing.

A few of us are affected much more, especially those of us that have gone beyond this site and have talked personally and gotten to really know her. We have had several conversations and I feel close to her and I always will.

I miss her so much Stringer.

I've been thinking about her all day.

I don't know if I can do this again.

I really don't.

Death sucks.

That's really the only way to explain it.

I know that this isn't news, I have been prepared for this, but it's silly, I still had hope. I don't now.

Really, I shouldn't be on line right now.

I'm just not dealing with this very well.

Not at all.

Don't want to burden you all. There's so much going on for everyone else. NM losing her dad. Justy going through all this stuff with her ex. KP and his stuff. I don't like to talk about what's bothering me. I shouldn't be now.

I'm supposed to be the rock, but the rock in crumbling.

I don't like it at all. :(

[Alty]

I'm going to log off guys.

I really don't want to bring you all down.

Please forget this.

Love and hugs. :)

[Stringer]

Go check it now Stringer! :D

Anyway, Alt, only KP can smell desperation, and he uses that to his advantage! ;)
Aww, okay, I'm sure you know what's best... :rolleyes:

Didn't know that about Starb! :eek: Hope she wakes up and gets well soon! What happened?

Thank you Helping, much appreciated. :)

[Stringer]

I'm going to log off guys.

I really don't want to bring you all down.

Please forget this.

Love and hugs. :)

You are not bringing us down hon, talking about her and how we feel is a good thing in my opinion. And it helps to get it out, you know that sweet.

[HelpinHere]

Come on Alt, we all love you, and are here if you need us.

I'll be the new rock. I've basically been conditioned to death, it doesn't affect me, but that's a story for a different, happier time. Until then, know that we don't blame you for breaking down today. It's natural.

And no problem, you're welcome Stringer! ;)

[Stringer]

I miss her so much Stringer.

I've been thinking about her all day.

I don't know if I can do this again.

I really don't.

Death sucks.

That's really the only way to explain it.

I know that this isn't news, I have been prepared for this, but it's silly, I still had hope. I don't now.

Really, I shouldn't be on line right now.

I'm just not dealing with this very well.

Not at all.

Don't want to burden you all. There's so much going on for everyone else. NM losing her dad. Justy going through all this stuff with her ex. KP and his stuff. I don't like to talk about what's bothering me. I shouldn't be now.

I'm supposed to be the rock, but the rock in crumbling.

I don't like it at all. :(

Who said that you were supposed to be the rock? You are strong and that's good but for God's sake hon she is passing and we should talk and help each other... right?

[Stringer]

Alty, come back for a few minutes...

[Alty]

I do know it. But it hurts so much.

I didn't mean to let her in, but I did. Heck, I've let all of you in.

I just wish I could talk to her one last time. I miss her voice. I miss her humor. I miss her.

You know me Stringer. I have a really hard time letting people in, I have my reasons, you know them all. It just hurts that I lowered my wall, and now this.

She doesn't deserve this. We don't either.

Darn tears. My life is better because I knew her, but it would be much better if she lived. It's just not possible.

The only bright side, I've gotten to know her Aunt very well. She's just like Starby, but still, she's not Starby. No one is. No one ever will be.

Really sorry guys. I'm in a mood. A sad one.

I shouldn't be talking about this, I'm supposed to be the plucky comic relief. ;)

[Alty]

I'm here.

HH, Stringer, thanks. :)

I am the rock. That's always been my role. When my parents were dying that was what I had to do, had to be. Everyone around me was falling apart, I couldn't, I had to hold the family together, comfort everyone, be the rock.

I broke down, but never in front of anyone. I broke down at home. Did I ever tell you that I almost gave up? I almost died with them. It was too much. Two people that I love more then anything, both dying, 6 months apart. It was just too much. All on my shoulders.

My son kept me alive. He's the reason I'm here.

I just have to wonder, how much pain can one person take? Why? I think I've had enough of it. Why more? I have to wonder, what did I do? Will it ever stop?

Boy, I'm a major downer tonight.

Really, I'm okay. I always am. I'm just, well, not okay too.