[eclipseego]

OK... this is a problem with myself and my feelings towards everybody.
I am a normal person, I have friends, and I live a normal life. The thing is, I am such a heartless person, hate overwhelms me every time that's my main problem. I can't love people, there's like only 5 people from all of my friends and people that I know that are loved by me, the rest of them I don't really care what happens to them and I hate to feel like this towards some of my closest friends, and if some of my closest friends don't matter to me, imagine what I feel for people that I don't know or that I only know them for 2 weeks, I feel that they are just a piece of trash. My mind relates everything with death, gore, and torture but that is mainly because of all of the hate that grows inside me, a hate that is intended to no one.
The question is... How should I live with this hate within me? What can I do to change this? I can't really stop feeling pure evil inside me.

[Clough]

If you would like to talk about how you are feeling, you will find people on this site who will be willing to share with you in order to help you. Please just keep posting. We are here! Thank you!

[Alan90]

Perhaps you should seek proffessional help?

[blacksinz]

Hey well I got same prob as u. Found out that the reason why I feel that way was cause I was just very sad. I hated myself so much and I end up used others to cover it up. When I talk to people I sound like normal but deep down I hated everything. Even till now. Mine got too overwhelming till can't stop anymore. But now I only hate myself a lot. Try talk to your parents or who ever can help before it gets worse. Take care

[eclipseego]

Well, I'm not a sad person normally but these two months have been sad for me but it's only because of the way I am, I'm not comftable with myself. I'm not a lonely person since I am a quite popular guy and I usually have people surrounding me and none of them actually know what is going on inside me, just my best friend who supports me every time I need her. So I think I will just live on with this overwhelming hate inside me and accept myself as I am.

[blacksinz]

Good way to start man. At least you got someone to share it with. The girl I thought I can tell everything to ended up not caring. At first she did but now no more. Keep her by urside then your going to be OK. Besides 1 day if you find someone or something tat makes you feel great your feeling towards things are going to change. Take care dude!

[godsbabygirl267]

Well, my opinion is this. Hate is like cancer, it spreads and never stops until something counteracts it. Like Newton said, for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. Pleas find someone to talk to. Don't just accept that you are sad and upset. It does no good. ANd in the end, it will hurt you a lot worse than you can possibly imagine. I know, I've been there. I actually pushed everyone I loved away and when I finally... I suppose "woke up" is a good phrase. WHen I finally woke up, I was alone. When the few people who did still speak with me spoke, they weren't looking at me, it was as if I wasn't there. And when I finally tried to fix it, everyone thought I was crazy or were shocked because they had forgotten that I could speak. Don't just accept anything unless you agree with it 100% and I think its safe to say that if you are desperate enough to post on here, you don't agree at all with being sad and hating everyone around you.

[Wondergirl]

Your heading says it all: "Hate the way I am".

Time to talk with an adult you trust and also to find a professional to bounce things around with. If you won't do that, start two journals--both daily, one in which you write down your negative feelings and ideas about people and yourself and the world in general, and the other one that lists two positive things that happened to you that day.