[Wondergirl]

Lololol gmta tmi

[Clough]

lololol gmta tmi

There you go with the advanced Martian stuff again!

Goodnight, Gracie!

[br_hjs]

All right. So I'm here again. I like really forgot about how I felt yesterday... I don't feel like he's using me at all. I feel like I've always felt only different... but maybe no one should say anything about it unless it's that he's not or something goood like that because I don't want to feel like I felt yesterday

[br_hjs]

But I think I'm going to go again but I'm really not sure... I dk

[Wondergirl]

Well, until you do the test and find out for yourself where his loyalties lie, there's not much we can say except to keep your eyes open.

[grammadidi]

I came on just to see how you are doing today, Michelle. I can't stay online due to health issues but I wanted to say a few things after our chat last night and reading all of your posts since then.

I feel, in the bottom of my heart, that this guy is using you. Even if he isn't, he doesn't love you. You keep asking the question and pretty much everyone who knows you as well as many, many people here (teens and adults of varying ages and both male and female) have told you that he seems to be using you, he doesn't treat you right, you deserve better, etc. You just do NOT want to hear it. Then, even when you allow yourself to admit it's true, you say that you don't care, that you still want him.

Many of us have discussed your need for therapy, Michelle. I really feel that you will benefit from therapy - NOT because I believe you are sick, but because you need someone to talk to about these issues. You need someone to sit down with you, listen, give you feedback, help you to plan out ways of letting go, moving past this and how to learn to respect and care for yourself. You are on the edge of either making a very serious mistake that will affect you in a negative way for the rest of your life OR growing up and making changes in your life that will make you a happier young woman.

You have a pattern of being used and accepting less than you deserve. You have an unhappy home situation. You have no real friends. You allow yourself to be treated like garbage and say you don't care. The truth is, whether you want to admit it or not, YOU DO CARE! Otherwise, you wouldn't be here, posting as you do... chatting with various members who are trying so hard to help you... etc.

This thread was started after you sent me a PM saying you wanted it because you DID want to grow emotionally. You said you wanted people who really cared and wanted to help you to be honest with you and support you. We are all trying, but you have to do your part too.

You cannot function without a proper night's sleep for any length of time. You cannot deal with your issues if you are unwilling to admit and work hard at getting past them. You KNOW the truth. You KNOW that the best thing for you is to let this guy go and work on your own self-improvement so you attract guys and girlfriends who genuinely care for you. You cannot get healthy by closing yourself off in your room every day after school and sleeping then stay up all night on the computer.

Michelle, you KNOW that Clough, Wondergirl, myself and many others really want to help you. You cannot change what you are unwilling to admit to, and once you do it will take hard work.

You know, there are plenty of girls and guys on this site who have come for advice, been given it, and make every effort with the support of the others to take the advice. Sure, when they feel like they can't do it they come back for support, but they make the effort. That is what you need to do, Michelle. You need to start accepting the very good and honest advice here and create a plan and the supports you need to stick to it.

We care Michelle... but do you??

Hugs, Didi

[br_hjs]

Sorry that's too much for me to read. {yawn} I'll read it later

[grammadidi]

sorry thats too much for me to read. {yawn} i'll read it later

Yeah, whatever...

You and I both know you are more than capable. Keep playing the game, kiddo, and you will be hurt. Like I said, it's your choice, and it seems you prefer negative attention to caring, positive advice. I guess what you have just told me is that I shouldn't bother. Okay. If you want my support and advice again, ask for it. Otherwise, you're on your own as far as I am concerned.

Hugs, Didi

[Clough]

I do hope that you read it, Michelle. If not once, many times. Please take it to heart. It is the truth.

If I could rate your answer Didi, I'd give you as many "Agrees" as I could!!

[br_hjs]

Yeah, whatever....

You and I both know you are more than capable. Keep playing the game, kiddo, and you will be hurt. Like I said, it's your choice, and it seems you prefer negative attention to caring, positive advice. I guess what you have just told me is that I shouldn't bother. Okay. If you want my support and advice again, ask for it. Otherwise, you're on your own as far as I am concerned.

Hugs, Didi

Well, if that's it... do you think that maybe, just maybe he realizes that I want to be sad and it's the reason why he treats me the way he does? But that's all wrong if that's what he thinks

[br_hjs]

He just called me... right when I quit crying and was getting ready to talk to my brother about it. Anyway... I tried to talk to him about how I think he's using me and he said he's not and then I was kind of talking a little more about it and he started to get a little mad. But anytime I worry about anything about him, he's like that. Like when we talk... he wants to have a good conversation not about something like that. Then he asked me when I'm getting my license and I told him that's part of why I think he's using me. And he's like "why?" and I said "when i get my lisence what are you going to want to do?" and he said "i want you to get your license to i can see you out of school, because we dont see each other much." then I said "okay but we arent going to have sex" he said okay and I jokingly said "well, maybe just once since its been a while" and then he said "no, 2 seconds ago you just said we wouldnt so we wont"

[br_hjs]

But he always kind of did leave it up to me. That's why I'm still kind of confused... I guess its just the holding hands/kissing thing that makes me wonder... but I asked on another web site and some guys replied and said that they don't really see what's so great about it... and 90% of people enjoy kissing is what I read on another web site. Anyway, I think that I just won't worry about it. But if I find out he is, its going to be hard to ever trust anyone again. But I'll come here for help, whatever happens

[br_hjs]

Then he said he was online chatting with babes all day.. and I just said "what" and then he said "whats the name of the movie thats off of" and he kept talking about some movie with a nerd in it

[br_hjs]

So what do you guys think about what he said?

[Wondergirl]

He was pushing your buttons. Guys call it "teasing".

[Clough]

Hi, Wondergirl!

I would like to add that if he really cared about you, he would be trying to do things that would make you feel good and not cause you to wonder what is going on and cause you to worry.

So, what's up Wondergirl?

[Wondergirl]

Wondergirl was up until 4:30 Sat morning and is ready for bed now.

Nothing much is happening. The cats are still wandering around. I finished the dishes, washed out the microwave, and made a pitcher of Minute Maid orange juice from frozen concentrate. I'm hungry and there's nothing much to eat. Everything is closed, since it's 2:30 a.m. I think I want a pizza.

[Clough]

Oh, you have a cat! So do I. My cat's name is Boots. I have a gig in Staunton, IL tomorrow. I washed my tux shirt and ironed my tux. Almost everything that I need is ready to go in my car.

[Wondergirl]

I have four cats -- Thomas Jefferson, Rasputin, Boswell, and Little Debbie (three are rescued).

You iron??

What time is your gig? For a wedding?

[Wondergirl]

Wondergirl is now going to snuggle under her electric blanket that has prewarmed her bed.

Good night, all.