[gaia213]

Aye Julian I see taking away that Aye and you have uncovered my name

I wonder how have you been my friends I see you are having so called lovely conversation a indeed cheerishing suspect whitch brings happiness that so many people unfortunately lack

I see you like the rain I do like different weathers on different occasions although I prefer freezing cold, that is just how I am used to minus 35 degrees Celsius aah the soothing cold snow melting on my skin but that is also due to another little story I may tell from my extremely young times

And how have you been my friends has anything happened I do hope nothing whitch would ruin your life nor your close ones

Youtube I see I do use that site from time to time to watch videos edit things see if I have japonese lacks on animes(it indeed childish yet remember. I am still a child at least biologically)


As for my life my usual problems things go as they go I indeed still suffer from one time to another yet there are always shining moments apparently I am changing school again although it does not matter any longer I have gotten used to changing school from one to three times a year and I do not get attached to things I admit no emotion is how I ussualy am that is why people also seem to think I do not get much as I have almost no answers to talk with but I am not emotioning nor liking to talk to people of such a low intellectual level

I do not say that I cannot stand, hate, detest or any such to people whitch are so called at a lower intellectual level,foolish or in simple words stupid I just do not like them that is how I am I am taking people by theyr intelligece then it comes to how the person looks smells the face and such by that you can often read out what person it is yet not always

I do know not to take out all of one by how the person looks it is just a obvious thing in these lands and I must admit ussualy foolish people smell... Not too good

That does remind me of a group work in class(I do indeed hate those as I have to do all work when rest of the group can sit behind)

But I ussualy end up with fools due to my so called bad luck and theyr start expectations whitch I truly am not agreeing with

To it, one of the people left to me smelled indeed horrible including that two smoking people were in front of me and the stench truly made me throw up when I did go out of the class but already by that and theyr appearance I can tell what people they are of course ussualy but in that case it is definitive

But that is how life goes in this country I do not have friends not only for the reason that I do not wish to lose any more contacts as the odds are against me in a too great way

There are hardly people that can catch my eye and I do not talk about only appearance

I wish for your rain call but I do not wish for you to catch a cold if you indeed need the rain the much you could go to a swimming pool for some water

A few days ago where I live there was an overflood of water falling from the skies the streets were flooded enough for a baby to swim in them and unfortunately the number of accidents was not a minor one

[startover22]

Hi Gaia, someday, there will be happiness. I remember the cold as well, from my child hood... I lived in Alaska. Temps were below freezing and my love for the cold has dwindled. I am sending you a big hug... so get ready and don't loose your breath this time... UH there it is... mmmmmm that was nice... thank you.

[shatteredsoul]

Hi Start!

[startover22]

Hi you, my puter is weird today, slow and crazy... I am trying to work it all out...

[shatteredsoul]

Ok, just wanted to say hello there! Have a wonderful day mama!

[startover22]

Hmmm, you going to call today, I missed it while I was putting the babes down.

[shatteredsoul]

Yeah, I would love to! I know you are a busy girl, you don't have to explain!

My computer at home is still giving me problems too, it sucks because I really want to get on when I get home. The good thing is , I cleaned last night and did laundry and thought of YOU!!

[startover22]

Hahahah, I didn't do any cleaning that I should have yesterday. I was on here too long and then there was only time for the kiddos...
Dustin had a good thought. Tell me what you think. The foster boys go to an overnight daycare sometimes, and I just thought that maybe if the need was high enough, I could do that instead of daytime care. The hours are normally 7 to 7, maybe a little later if I need to see them off to school, but it is still good money and then I have more time for my own children... seens how our kids' bedtime is normally between 7 and 9 anyway... the older kids 9 or 9:30 and the younger ones, between 7 and 8... well, what do you think about that?

[shatteredsoul]

That is a great idea!! How did you find out about that? Wow, good one Dustin!

[startover22]

Well, the foster boys are in night time care, as the mom works nights so they are sometimes with two daycares in one day... only for thirty days though. Her work times will be day starting in September, so I am glad that is over. Pretty crazy how when I drop them off, I want to scoop them up and bring them back to my house.
Dustin just thought that if I wanted to, I should go for it.
It also means that I wouldn't be watching the boys anymore so I am not sure yet. Just a really good idea that's all. How are you doing, I loved your post I commented on, that was a great way to open O'troubles mind. YOUR words work wonders sometimes sweet...

[shatteredsoul]

Well thank you for that! I feel bad for her, she has been pushed to the limit with religion and I wish she realized there are other ways of understanding God, not including religion. Ya know? But I do appreciate your support. I always wonder if I come off sounding like know it all. I sure don't mean to.
I think it really is a great idea. Even if you can't see the boys, you would still make time to see them in other, less stressful ways.
Dustin is right, you should go for it, your days would be so much more manageable for you!

I am getting the twin boys this weekend, Bryce is very excited! So am I!

[startover22]

Oh, good for you. It has been way too long for you to be able to hang out with them...
I don't think you come off as a know it all, more like a loving soul instead of shatteredsoul, maybe that is just how you got all the love though.
I am not sure what I will do, can't think too hard, I may explode...

[shatteredsoul]

I surely can relate! I started reading a book last night, I thought my mind would explode from all the thoughts racing through my head. It is weird. As much as I think I understand and know, I realize I still don't know much. I have all these ideas in my head, but no way to organize them or set goals. It is true, I feel the same way.
My love for you, I hope shines through.

Shattered, but not broken.

[startover22]

It surely does... I hope mine does the same.
I know you are not broken...
Remember, we are always learning, if you keep an open mind, more will be able to get in, sometimes we don't have the choice to keep and discard.

[shatteredsoul]

YOu are so right, and thank you for sticking up for me over there! WHEW!!

[startover22]

You don't need anyone to stick up for you... You are a tough cookie.

[shatteredsoul]

ME tough?? AWW, I am really just a big softie inside. Just the exterior holds up, the inside crumbles at the sight of a newborn, or a friendly word from a kind friend.

I like it when you join in, I feel the super powers between us!!

[startover22]

awwwwww!

[shatteredsoul]

OHH my, what did I get into? I have such a headache! I will be leaving in like forty five minutes so I will call if you aren't busy.

[startover22]

Yeah, good for you. Get out while you can. LOL
I will be giving lunch out... give me a call, I will talk if I can.. Hugs, enjoy the rest of your day!