[Adil muhammed]

Assalamu alaikum"sir my name is adil... and I'm studyng bba.. in sharjah.. sir I'm having continuos thoughts about death.. and negative always... for years I'm suffering from these... anxiety,worry,tension,depression,obsession,sometim es nowadays faithless,I am thinking bad about allah ,prophet,about me... about my relatives... which I don't want to think... someone is telling something... in my mind without my control... and I'm afraid of that thought always... I have seen somany psychatry,psychologist,counseller,no use its with me for 6 years... please anyone help me... I lost my oppurtuniy... my time... my eductn,I cannot work,study,cannot go anywere,cannot travel,always afraid... im now 20 years old... I cannot enjoy like others... my youth is spoiling... my health become weak... im feeling ashamed with... ma... frnds... just eat and sleep... thats all... what should I do... I have so many dreams... im satisfied with ma life... but I cannot control my mind... my parents are financially down... only hope for them is me... I need... a help

[joypulv]

"someone is telling something... in my mind without my control... and I'm afraid of that thought always..."
Has a doctor suggested that you have schizophrenia? It is often fully developed by about the age of 20. It really does take both carefully prescribed medications, sometimes trying different ones until you find what works best, and plenty of talk therapy.
I realize that it may not be easy to find the best kind of doctors and therapists where you live, and that your family not only cannot pay to send you to Europe or America, but are also hoping that you will support them. At age 20, you should be supporting yourself, but not your parents, unless you contribute to the household if living with them.
You need to find a doctor who can prescribe the right medications! Then at least you might be able to work part time and feel better about yourself and your family.
Try to convince yourself (not easy, I know) that the 'bad thoughts' are part normal and part the illness. One way to describe mental illness of this sort is that one part of you feels separate from the part of you that you want to be, and that that other part is the part most in control of how you think. It's really you, just you, but it doesn't seem that way.
We ALL have anger at times, even at friends and family, people we love. But most of us don't get overwhelmed with the guilt, and don't obsess over the feelings. Medication should be able to help with that, and talk therapy would help too.

[Precious7]

"Someone is telling something in your mind" what are the things you here in your mind?