[maidah4]

I’m a 21 years old girl, in love with a guy aged 24. We study in the same university. We have been friends for 1 year before getting into a relationship. Our friendship was a most awesome thing in the world for me. I belong to a well-off family. We fell in love with each other and got into a relationship 2 years ago when he proposed me, I readily accepted his proposal.

At the start, he was good with me. I felt he does not love me as much as I do but he was all I wanted. Therefore, I listened to everything he said and demanded. We shared a physical relationship with each other and made out (not sex). Then, vacations fall. He stopped giving me time. I used to keep waiting for his texts and calls. When I got frustrated to the fullest, I said I want to breakup and he was okay with it. But just a week before uni was to open, he came and apologized and I forgave him. (I used to do his assignments and help in studies). Then, I found out one day that he was still talking to his ex. I got mad at him but he was so relaxed and said he wasn’t cheating. I asked him to tell his ex that he is in relationship with me but he refused to do so. I stopped talking to him but he didn’t come. After a month, he came to me again and I forgave him again. Another semester was about to end and during the vacations he left me and got lost again until the next semester started.

I kept asking what my fault is. But he didn’t reply. I had given him every expensive gift he wanted. Even cash to spend as his desire. I never became a burden on him by asking for gifts. He never spent a penny on me. Every time, even on dates and lunches, I pay for us both.

He came again into my life. I thought he was changed but then he took me to his home and attempted rape on me. Fortunately, I escaped. Later, he showed his regret and I forgave him. During the vacations after that, he abused me and left me again and didn’t talk back. I called him, cried like nuts, attempted suicide but he didn’t have mercy on me. Before the uni was to reopen he came again. Apologized, said he missed me and I melted again. This time, he seemed a lot changed. He said he never wants to lose me. He kept abusing me verbally and later said sorry to which I recovered after sometime.

Then, here is this incident that took place a week ago. Remember, the semester is ending again. We were in our university café. I just asked him when to call my driver to pick me up, tell me time. (I asked him because he bunked his class to sit with me) he said ''whenever you get bored of me'' how can I get bored of the person I love like crazy? I asked him repeatedly to whom he asked me to leave right then and started scolding me. I stood up to leave but then he said STAY! I stayed. Tears fall down my eyes. Then he said, '' IF YOU Got to DO THIS ACTING, GO LEAVE! I left. He asked me to stay again but I didn’t stay. Then, he texted me up and abused like anything. He left no abuses left with him. I kept crying. The other day, he said he is sorry and he was on DRUGS that’s why he abused me. And that he didn’t do it with his own will and that he doesn't want to leave me at the end of the semester. He said he wants to meet me and talk about it. I’m so hurt, I’m just dead. I feel so insulted. Just because I love him, he does all this to me? Does he even love me? What else do I have to do to make him happy? Should I even stay and talk back or just leave? I've listened and done everything for him. Is this my reward?

[playbunny_1995]

Damn I know how you felt you should walk away and leave him his not worth it its going to be hard but get yourself busy talk to friend meet new people and have fun

[maidah4]

Thank you for your support. Yea, I just need to be strong this time not to go back to him if he comes again.. don't have any courage left to suffer ONE more time.

[playbunny_1995]

No problem just be strong and meet new people just make sure you don't give your heart to easy to guys they sometimes like to take advantage :) so yeah have fun your still young ;) good luck

[talaniman]

I can understand forgiving once, but not over and over, and still getting treated bad. Leaving him alone is long overdue.

[maidah4]

I can understand forgiving once, but not over and over, and still getting treated bad. Leaving him alone is long overdue.

thank you dear user for your concern.

No problem just be strong and meet new people just make sure you don't give your heart to easy to guys they sometimes like to take advantage :) so yeah have fun your still young ;) good luck

yea, thank you =)

[playbunny_1995]

Your welcome