[Loweeeze]

A little while ago my boyfriend kissed another girl whilst drunk. I was told by my friend andrew, though my boyfriend said he'd been planning to tell me but just could bare to hurt me... So after hitting him, and going insane for a little bit I decided that regardless of him cheating I still loved him. So we agreed to go on a break and then go on another 'first date', on our next anniversary, (his idea?- he's planning a surprise or something?) But all of my friends and other guys keep telling me I could do better and that he will just do it again? And now after not haven spoken to him in ages, I'm lonely but at the same time I'm realising that I don't need him... but I still want to be with him... if that makes sense aha? I just don't know if I'm actually in love with him or if I just like having a boyfriend? This guy I'm friends with told me yesterday that 'hes in love with me' and I've been asked out by a few other people... The strange thing is I was tempted to go and do stuff with one of these people, and doesn't that just show that I don't really love my boyfriend? I know this is attention seeking and pityful, but I don't what to do! Im getting mixed advice from all my friends; guys are telling me to cheat on him, to get even, then dumb him and whore around for a bit? Yet girls are telling me that I should either dumb him and stay single (because I'm a strong and independent woman... apparently?) or stay with him because he is my one true loveee... urghhhhhh its times like this when I wish I was gold fish.