[zebragirl5]

Lately I have hated myself. I realized this when my mom said I couldn't get the iPhone and I threw a huge fit. I called her many names.I realized I also hurt her when I said she was fat and ugly and that's why my dad left her. I knew from that moment I regretted it,but I didn't want to tell her sorry. I know I'm a spoiled brat,but I feel so bad. Im in the age of 13-15 and need help. I look at myself and see an ugly person. I know I may not be ugly since I've been offered modeling jobs,but I can't convince myself that. I feel fat,but at the same time too skinny. My parents are going through a divorce,but still trying to cope with each other. I feel like all my friends are prettier then me,and that I'm just the odd one out. My friends treat me like I'm there sister and I know who the odd ones out are. I feel like I don't have nice clothes. One minute I'm the happiest person-laughing and enjoying everything-,but when I get home,I feel mad at the world,like my house is the Happiness Sucker,and I know that's not it because my moms always smiling. Ive attempted cutting,and was close to swallowing a handful of pills once.
I just wonder why I'm here on Earth,and I know God hates me. I just need help.

[Homegirl 50]

You're a 13-15 year old girl who is out of sorts with herself, that is pretty normal. Everything is kind of out of whack.
One thing you need to do is apologize to your mom. You'd be surprised how good being nice makes you feel about yourself. When you do something nasty and just ignore it like it never happened, it makes you feel awful.
Talk to your mom about how you're feeling, I would imagine she is going through a rough time too and you two could be a big help to each other.