[nhcj]

I'm the youngest in my family and I used to be the closest to my parents, I'd be the only one willing to hug my dad. Now, my siblings have gone to university, its like I'm the single child. When they left, I started acting very indifferent to my parents and ignoring them and not having conversations with them and now its getting worse; its come to a point where we are strangers and we don't talk at all except when I ask for things.

I know this sounds very spoilt and brat-like but I feel so guilty every time I see them and I know they are so hurt. Every time after one of our monosyllable conversations I tell myself I have to be nicer to them even if I'm acting but whenever I come face to face to them I find myself unable to look them in the eye and I feel this anger and disgust. I don't know why I'm feeling this and I really want to change but it feels like I can't control it. I'm not sure if I'm being unconsciously affected by some things that's happened in the past, but I can't think of anything.

When I finally get the courage sit down and talk to them I still can't say anything and when they talk to me about this I just feel more and more like I can't talk to them. When Im about to talk, I just feel like crying and I stop. I know I need to stop this.

Please help me resolve this.

[tinsign]

Maybe this will help you, think if they were gone all the things you would have said and talked about. Honey all they want is to feel needed you could talk about things you use to do when they took you places. You could talk about flowers, dreams, people anything they just feel like they are losing you and facing soon the fact it will be an empty nest.