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I just can't let us go.
Okay so some backround information: I met this guy Darryn in 2009 beginning of December and he asked me out on christmas. We dated and he was a fantastiv boy friend. We always had a very deep emotional connection but we still had light fun times. It was really maagic. Then in June I broke up with him because of pressure from a friend(I don't speak to her any more) this friend was very manipulative and emotioonally abusive. Anyway so the breakup was one of my biggest regrets... He started dating anaother woman two weeks after we broke up. We stayed friends. It was awkward at first but then we became like best friends.it was exactly how it was when we were dating but better somehow. Then one day we were texting having a silly playful conversation and then he just sent me a message saying that he never wants to talk to me again and that our friendship is causing problems in his relationship. This was a relationship I had saved! Multiple times he would come to me angry and going to break up with her and I would calm him down and convince him otherwise. Well I haven't spoken to him in 5 months and I still can't get over it. When I think about it it just makes me sad. I've tried so hard to move on but I just can't. I miss him so much as a friend and a boyfriend. But right now I would be perfectly happy with just a friend.I've tried so hard to let go by filling my ylife with gym and school and reading I go out with my frriends I've even tried dating but nothing comes close. I think about him all the time even though I've tried not to. I wonder if he still thinks about me. I'm just not sure what to do now. I know most people would say move on but I just don't know how? I'm just so lost.
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